I believe now that I am in a much stronger position than I was before. Before I would pray to God for forgiveness every time I sinned. Every time I masturbated that is.Now I just don't give a damn anymore because I am not religious and I am not going to be unless someone can prove me wrong. Life as an atheist is much more fulfilling than that of those people. In fact, many americans are losing it all. I am not ashamed. I am so glad that this year I have a teacher who actually tells us that what we don't want to believe we bounce out but what we wish to believe in never leaves us; will always be ingrained into our minds.
I don't think that masturbation is filthy; I believe that one can resist it without anyone's help. I believe that masturbation is something that everyone has to go through as teenagers and that we all need to face reality, not place confidence in beliefs that affect our well being.

[Travelinglady]

I agree, heyitsme7. And I am a strong Christian. Not all denominations or churches believe it's wrong. There's no reason to give up believing in God just because you do that. Okay?

give me one good reason why i should pray. even when i ask people to pray for me, bad things happen to me instantly. seems like everyone else is just praying evil into my life. prayer sometimes makes things worse instead of better. i don't want to relapse into immoral behavior. I don't want to deal with the pain in this life. His message is just hard to live by. I don't want anyone to pray for me. All i need is practical advice. I am not proud. Seriously what's the point of praying if it's going to make others look down upon you? what's the point of praying if I'm keep failing? I don't want to fail. I want a quick fix to my problems now! I have gone through this for so many years and I have been trying to get rid of the things in my house so that it can make my life better. Now i feel like everything that I have been doing is all in vain. Prayer keeps me from saying waht I want. When I tell others not to pray, they go ahead and pray for me anyway. Why? Give me one good reason why I should stay a christian. Everybody in teh world hates christians. I don't want to go through tribulations. I have had a lot of depression problems already and to have others insult me is like adding more injury. I want to be free and i want all evil to just depart from me. I am done!

in other religions like judaism and islam, to worship Jesus is like worshipping a human being and all this tiem I feel like the reason I have been punished is because I have been committing idolatry. Maybe that's the reason I have not been able to break free from my addictions. Maybe that's the reason why God is upset with me and wants me to know that I should not "associate partners with God" (Islam). I have studied both faiths briefly and I have been wondering if that's why christians have been suffering for so many years. maybe christians have it all wrong. I hate it. I want to quit all religions whatsoever unless someone can prove me wrong!
religion consumes most of my time all i want now is an education and to heal my problem. religion cannot fix my problems. religion is a guide, not a problem solver.

we need to reach out to professionals in order to change.

Plus I am here to come clean about what I did when I was in middle school. When I was in 7th grade there's this one teacher I had. I borrow a dictionary from him but never returned it. Eventually I began making marks in it and then i ripped out all the pages and never gave it back so every time I look up a word i would forget about it the day after and then later masturbation would come back to haunt me. You see, actions don't matter. Now I wish I can make restitution for the deeds that I have done. Plus before I got addicted to porn and masturbation, I would talk about them a lot and now guess what... I am addicted... you see, it's not just faith. it's your actions regardless of your beliefs.

[Travelinglady]

I also am a firm believer in counseling. I think that would be a great step for you to take. As you say, it is a positive way to deal with addictions.