I took my son to the dentist yesterday and since I was in that area, I went to the hospital because of my leg.

For the last two weeks, my entire left leg and knee has been in more pain than my back. I don't sleep much and usually don't until 4 or 5am and then am up early. On the way to my son's appt. I called my primary doc and made an appt for the 8th of next month - seems that he is only in the office on Mondays now. My leg has actually slowed down my recovery because I have to use a walker and not go very far because the leg will give out and hurts so much.

I told them this when I was in the hospital and they took an xray of the groin area before I left. Nothing showed so they told me that it was nerve damage from the surgery and "hopefully" would go away. Since then it has steadily gotten worse. The pain meds for my back do nothing for my leg at all. Ice packs and heat pads have also made things worse..........so I had to stop there last night and try to get some answers.

Of course, my husband would only stop if I put gas in his car, since he was driving............what a jerk. We went and sat for 3 1/2 hours in the waiting room. The hospital was packed, and they had no rooms available at all. They had people in the hallways lined up.

I had patience because I knew that there were more important injuries there ahead of me........my husband was not of course. In between yelling at me and complaining that he was tired, hungry, thirsty, etc. he went out and smoked constantly.

When I got taken, I was put on a bed in the hallway. They started an IV and took more blood and gave me a shot of morpheine to help with the pain. It did nothing for me. I was surprised because I hadn't eaten all day either. I was worried about my son as well because I knew he was hungry too.

They gave me another shot of morpheine and took me to get an ultrasound of my leg. They were looking for a blood clot - and thankfully didn't find one. The second shot worked for about 10 mins. until the tech kept pushing on my leg to get the pictures.

My husband & son went out to the waiting room to watch wrestling and came back during the commercials to check on me........that was ok because I didn't have to make small talk and act fine when they were gone. Then the docs took an xray of my knee, and still found nothing.

They ace bandaged my knee, gave me a dose of stronger pain killer than morpheine plus an anti-inflammatory injection and put me on crutches. They want no weight on that leg at all........and told me to call my primary doc today. They would send reports to him and my back surgeon (all at the same hospital).

By this time my head was fuzzy and I was extremely light headed. In between my husband's complaints, I gave him $$ for gas and got us dinner. We were at the hospital for 7 hours and didn't get out till after 10pm last night. I was worried about my son so I overdrew and paid for dinner at the drive-thru restaurant. That was about 11pm..........we didn't get home till midnight. The doc had also sent home a prescription for me to get filled.

For the first time, I slept most of the night - the normal getting up for the restroom not included. My husband went and got my meds for me (which, with my insurance only ever costs me one dollar). I have heard about that stupid dollar all day. Anyway, this med is oxycotin and is long lasting - I have 6 of them, 2 per day 12 hours apart. I have to take it with food.

I called both my docs today.........the primary won't be in till Monday and "he is booked solid that day and Wed.....so we'll see if he can fit you in". My back surgeon refuses to see me before the end of Sept. - told me to decrease my activities even more and use ice. Oh sure.........like I can decrease anything more. I have to use the crutches now, not the walker and wait till Monday to see if I can be fitted in.

Somehow I hope I can sleep tonight but I doubt it. I must have a high tolerance for pain meds because they had to keep increasing the dose each time. Amazingly my husband blamed me for that as well, that and screwing up his evening.........one day I hope he gets his.

Mary Alice

[Zenobia]

{{{{{{{{{Mary Alice}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Life is hard enough without constant pain, the ones in your leg and your back and the one big pain in your ***. I wish I could kick your hubby to the curb for you. He makes me so mad. You deserve more help and more understanding. But your hubby isn't the only pain, your doctor is a pain too. Argh!! I can totally understand your frustration and anxiety. I hope things start going better for you and sincerely hope that the new meds help with your physical discomfort and let you get more rest.
Take care dear one,
Carrie

<font color=green>Not knowing when the dawn will come, I open every door.--Emily Dickenson

[Peanut61]

Hi {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Mary Alice}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}: I have to agree about your pain in the *** husband = double arggh!!! I admire that you went to the ER and stuck it out to see about your leg = I am praying that you can get some relief from your leg and back pain as soon as possible. You definately have my respect with all that you endure!!! Warmest regards & many hugs!!!!!!!!! Your friend, Peanut

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Carrie, ty ::::::sending hugs to you:::::::::::::

I did something a little sneaky yesterday - I sent an email to my T telling him about all this and how booked up my primary doc is. My T and him are friends and keep in touch via email or calls about me...........I hopefully am right when I assume that when my T gets my email, he will contact my primary and I will get in next week on Mon. or Wed.

I was only given enough of the new med for 3 days, which ends tomorrow......then I go back to not sleeping and wishing my leg was gone. I offered to leave it at the ER and pick it up later when it was fixed, but no one took me up on my offer - lol.

I hope you are doing well Carrie - ty for caring.

Mary Alice

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I am used to the jerk that I am married to, sometimes he reaches an all time low - and that surprises me how far he sinks.

At least I will still have the meds tomorrow, I promised my son that I would take him to a "back to school picnic" at the school from noon till 2pm - he can run around and see his friends. He hasn't had much of a summer, the poor kid. So, I'll be there on my crutches and knee/back bandaged up - lol.

Course I have to get him to drive us, but he will, or else.
Take care Peanut and thanks.

Mary Alice

[Serenity]

Seems to me....fix the leg,leave the hubby but thats jsut my opinion

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Serenity

How I wish things were that simple Serenity.

Anything worthwhile has never been easy to obtain. Take care.

Mary Alice

[Rapunzel]

Mary Alice,

My thoughts and prayers are with you to help you make it through one day at a time and get in to see your doctor A.S.A.P. and get your leg taken care of. Be careful and try not to over do it!
Wendy

<font color=green>Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that, you, too, can become great. -Mark Twain</font color=green>

[heatherm]

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Oh my....gosh I wish we were there with you...I can see your hubby now with a bunch of angry friends ready to go at him . You don't deserve all of this at all....you are in my thoughts all the time and I am so pleased that you are keeping your sense of humour through all of this. I am also so glad that you are staying in touch with all of us. We are there for you hun. Give your son a hug for us too ok?

Take care
Hugs
Heather

<font color=blue>The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way </font color=blue>

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I'll be limping around today at a picnic, my son has informed me that he will help me sit down and rest.
So, it will be all good. [laughing]

Mary Alice

Heather, have I told you lately how much I appreciate your caring? If not, I do.............ty. Maybe that is how my bp stays so low - it was 90/50 the other night at the hospital , must be my sarcasm and wit.

My son always appreciates hugs as well, so tyvm.

Mary Alice

[heatherm]

Thank you {{{{{{{{{{{Mary Alice}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Your caring nature comes through so strongly. I am such a strong believer in positive thinking and the power of laughter to get me through each day. Somedays it is so hard to see it but I make sure I look for it . It has gotten me through so many bad times and I have a strong feeling that it is helping you too.

Keep smiling and giving those hugs to your son. Hope you are having a wonderful day with him too. Both of you are very lucky

Hugs
Heather

<font color=blue>The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way </font color=blue>

[heidu]

Hey Mary Alice,
Sounds like it's been tough. Pain is never fun. It looks like you have a line up to beat up the hubby....I'm first.
Take care of yourself. I hope you can get in to the doc soon. I also hope you have a really nice day with your son. He is lucky to have a mom like you who is taking good care of him. I know it will mean alot that you are there.
Try to get some rest too!!
Heidu

Every path to a new understanding begins in confusion- Mason Cooley

[heatherm]

{{{{{{{{{{{Mary Alice}}}}}}}}}}}}}

I meant to reply to your earlier posting on here too......"How I wish things were that simple Serenity. Anything worthwhile has never been easy to obtain. Take care." You are so right in that it is never easy but it is soooo worthwhile for your peace and happiness as well as your sons.

You have so much on your plate right now but I did want to give you some homework ....get a piece of paper and write down pros and cons.....under each title - write down the pros and cons of staying with or leaving hubby. When you are done hang onto that list and each day add or subtract something. After a couple weeks - look at your list and see if the thoughts and feelings are the same....then you can share with us here or keep it to yourself. The reason I am telling you about this is that it is what I did with my ex hubby.Now if you are like me...it took me 2 and 1/2 years to go over that list over and over in my mind and believe me I waited too long but that is the past. When I read your posts there are so many times I feel like I am reading about myself...I always said to myself that if I ever come across someone in a similar situation as I used to be in, then I would do whatever I can to help them. Mary Alice, I feel that this person is you .

I am not one for encouraging any marriage to break up but I really feel from the bottom of my heart that it is hurting you more than you are admitting to us and especially admitting to yourself.

Try the homework I assigned and share with us if you want to. We are all here for you and care about you so much.

Hugs
Heather

<font color=blue>The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way </font color=blue>

[Fuzzybear]

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Take care,
Fuzzy
xox