The Visit

Well, the appointment this afternoon was so nerve-wracking.
Surprisingly, I fought off from crying. My voice cracked and shook a lot, but I didn't want to go to class with red eyes...so I didn't.
He asked a lot of questions, and seemed to be most interested in my self-injury.
I'm not sure if it was an official diagnosis, but he said I met all the criteria for major depressive disorder.

I seriously was more scared for this appointment than I ever have been performing for hundreds of people or for public speaking.
I basically told him everything, and it was really strange spilling these things to someone I don't even know.

Anyway...he suggested therapy and medication, which I am going to do both.

I really couldn't believe I actually did it, and followed through with the appointment. I guess now I know it's not just all in my head....?

We'll see where it goes.

I am so happy for you FS (((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))) I can imagine how hard this was for you. It sounds like he is very understanding and that you like him. Both very important. I am glad that you decided to continue.

(((((fifth sonata)))))
congratulations for taking the hardest step of all- asking for help. You must feel a lot of relief having just done that, and having a diagnosis made and treatment plans in place (the meds and therapy). Good luck for your journey, and I hope that it all goes well for you. Irish.

Good job. The first appointment is scary. Admitting that you need help, to someone who can help you, is very scary. But it will be worth it, and it will get easier. That you were able to recognize that you needed help and be open and honest are good signs that you will be able to make good progress.

TC, and keep talking to us.

Rap

Good job!

(((((((((Fifth_Sonata))))))))))))

I'm so glad that you went...I know that it probably feels a bit weird that everyone is congratulating you.

Making this step is big - as I said before it took me 20 years to make the step you are making now...

So I echo all - good job!

I'm proud of you - I know how hard this is!

I also want to congratulate you - good job!!

Thank you so much everyone. I think the deciding factor in making the phone call was seeing everyone's reaction and encouragement to seek help. I guess I was looking for someone to tell me it was the right thing to do.

Thanks again, I really mean it.