[cryingchild]

Im such a stupid moo.why am i still pretending everything is ok.I have not cut for two weeks now and i hate myself for it.Last nite I burnt myself 15 times with my fag i just kept saying to myself you deserve this ........you deserve to feel pain.Everything is just so wrong.again..........when am i going to stop treating myself like this,when am i going to start liking myself if only for a day?? thats all i ask.I know im not making sense here I just feel so hopeless so useless.if im not cutting im burning and if im not burning im cutting.I really feel like banging my head against the wall !!! Im such a stupid moo.

[Rapunzel]

Louise,

It's just hard. You're not stupid, you're struggling with some difficult problems and dealing with them as well as you know how. Only you can say when you will stop, and maybe you're just not ready yet. You will be and I have a feeling that it will be soon (based on that you seem to be fed up with it, which is a good reason to change).

I probably shouldn't tell you this, but my house has holes in the walls in three different places where I put my head through them. That doesn't count places where the walls were strong enough to stand up to it - I learned where the studs are. I have to admit to feeling pretty stupid about that.

We don't do these things out of stupidity - we're trying to cope. Don't be afraid to talk to us. We can understand pretty much anything here. I sincerely hope that you feel better very soon.
{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Louise}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
Love and kind wishes,
Wendy

<font color=blue>Life is filled with tragedy; if you let it overwhelm you, you cannot enjoy life's innocent pleasures. -Robert Heinlein</font color=blue>

[kvinneakt]

Ian!

You are wonderful! You are winning my heart. Thank you for being there for cryingchild!

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