I quit my meds a week ago. I had been feeling okay until a few days ago. I feel so spacy and really sullen. I cut last night for the first time in a while. I went to church on wed. Im new there. The pastor came up to me and gave me a hug. It made me feel so disgusting. I keep thinking about it. I don't think he meant anything but i felt so gross. It was one of those long hugs. Maybe he just saw that i was sad, but it felt so uncomfortable. I never hug men...especially a pastor. ugh. i feel so gross.

[wi_fighter]

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[catgirl]

i'm not on med either and have felt like i need a good burn/cut to snap me out of this mode i'm in. extremely depressed. i called the psy. a couple of days ago to set up an appoint. to change past med and try something dif. hasn't called back. i suppose i should bug them again.

as far as the hug part, i sure can relate. i don't even look men in the eyes not to mention hugs--way too many bad memories. alot can happen in a short hug. yuck is right! you would think pastors would be aware of what can be communicated. unfortunately, i don't trust men period--pastors included.