[Fuzzybear]

I'm still on this planet
I'm feeling very angry pissed off and unsafe.
Really doesn't matter though.

[beggin for help]

I am sorry you feel that way. I do, too.

[Fuzzybear]

Being treated like a piece of garbage (IRL) doesn't help. But then what should I expect, as I suppose thats what I am

[pegasus]

Your feelings do matter. Maybe you need to stay away from the person that is treating you like this?

[beggin for help]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

Being treated like a piece of garbage (IRL) doesn't help. But then what should I expect, as I suppose thats what I am

I cried so hard in my bed last night, rocking back and forth and holding my head board so tight, calling myself terrible names and putting earplugs in my ears to keep from hearing sounds that really are not even there. For some reason, calling myself terrible names made me feel better. Explain that one!

[Fuzzybear]

Maybe like me you were abused when young, constantly called terrible names. And ignored and shut away as if somehow Dirty. And somehow it feels ... safer? calling those terrible ugly names to yourself. It's probably that for me anyway. We have some control over what we call ourselves...(sometimes anyway)

[Sannah]

Fuzzy, being treated poorly or well is all about learning skills on how to take care of yourself, stand up for yourself and meet your needs. Those of us from dysfunctional families didn't learn these things but we can learn them at any time.

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

Really doesn't matter though.

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

Being treated like a piece of garbage (IRL) doesn't help.

But then what should I expect,

as I suppose thats what I am

Fuzzy, do you think that it is helpful to continue to degrade yourself with these thoughts? I mean, yes, these thoughts are going to come to you because they were "implanted" there by your parents but you don't have to cooperate with them.

So you were angry because of how someone treated you and then when you get angry you feel scared and unsafe?

[Kiya]

Fuzzy - me too. I am working on reaching out and putting myself somewhere safer. And i'm really scared about doing this. I hope you can be safe. I like you lots and would really miss you if you were gone.

[Fuzzybear]

Thanks everyone

Sannah, your reply makes a lot of sense, thanks

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[gutterflower]

I do know how you feel, I feel the same way, I degrade myself constantly.. Recently I was give a book called "The Four Agreements" By Don Miguel Ruiz. It is changing my life as I read it, I re-read & re-read untill I get it. I cant explain it, It is so personal that it is meant just for YOU. I am going through so much right now with med changes and trying to find a Dr. But in the mean time this book has really been a blessing to me. I hope you feel better, take care, Your friend Gutterflower

[googley]

(((((((Fuzzy))))))))))

Your feelings are important. You matter so much. I am so sorry that people aren't treating you respectfully. Please treat yourself with care. You deserve it.

[Abby]

Can I ask who treats you bad? Is it family or friends or other?

I get what you mean, it can feel safer to remain in what we understand and expect - e.g horrid names.....but sometimes, as horrifically hard at it is we need to take a risk and face our fears. That can mean confronting our worst fear and our deepest beliefs about ourselves.....

I understand how hard that is. And it doesn't happen over night, I can testify to that! Sometimes it feels like an endless journey where we take lots of steps backwards....

But the main thing is that somewhere along the line we say 'NO!' to both ourselves and others.....it may be only a faint no at the beginning but recognising ppl are treating you badly is a start....next step is to believe you don't deserve it....

btw i've never asked before but are you in therapy?

[Fuzzybear]

"Family" and (IRL) "friends" (and therapist too....)
some of which are being shown the door....

Thanks everyone for your support

[JustAPixie]

(((( fuzzy ))))

I wish I knew what to say, although I do not always understand your situation and state of mind, I really do care about you and I get upset when I hear that other people do not treat you right.

You are special, you deserve more... not just empty words, but the truth.

[googley]

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I'm glad you are standing up for yourself.

[Fuzzybear]

[bipolar_bear]

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Fuzzy))))))))))))))))))))))) I am sorry you are feeling so bad.

BB

[googley]

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