[sociallyawkward2010]

Seems everywhere I go, people are either bored of me or outright angry at me. I have an extremely low self-image and am almost addicted to approval from others. You can understand how upsetting this is making me. I do NOT like to be hated, or even perceive that I am being hated. However, that's all I seem to bring out in people today, especially at my workplace. What is really upsetting is how I deal with rejection. It is almost a suicide like approach. I was seeing a psychiatrist but my psych health benefits ran out with my insurance co, so I effectively got "cut off" (part of the reason I am so depressed).

Anyway, what can I do about these recurring self-destructive thoughts. I probably would never follow through with suicide, bc I am kind of a coward when it comes to that. The very thought of or resort to self-destructive behavior as a substitute still means somehting to me and it is something I cannot seem to get away from. How can I cheer up and get myself out of this highly self-dangerous mood, especially when I feel so worthless from being rejected so much...?? I am very upset, any help or encouragement would not only be appreciated, it might wind up saving my life, at least down the road. Before anyone thinks this is just a manipulation to get attention, please let me assure you it is NOT. I am quite worried about what I am thinking and what I may be capable of. I am confused and alone and even scared. (I have tried praying but nothign seems to happen). PLEASE HELP, PLEASE!

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Well, what can I say but welcome to PC. It can change your life abit if you let it it. I've been in a highly self-dangerous mood before and have survived it. So you can do it too!!! There are many of us on here that have been through what you have been thorugh (at least partly) You are in good company here. I would encourage you to look into Emotional Freedome Technice, or some herbs. The Emotioanl Freedome Tehniche or EFT can help without the price of a Therapist. and can be helpful. Please just try it. Start with... "Even though I feel so scared and alone, I deeply and Truely accept myself" and see what that does but you must do it with the tapping. I recomend Tapping.com becuase it shows you thorugh videos. I would also recomend EFT.org (or I think that's what it is). Try it. It could help.

Hoping that you will do much better in the next few days. (and read below, it can help too)

[Sannah]

Originally Posted by sociallyawkward2010

I have an extremely low self-image and am almost addicted to approval from others.

I do NOT like to be hated, or even perceive that I am being hated.

What is really upsetting is how I deal with rejection.

This ^ can cause this (below).

Originally Posted by sociallyawkward2010

Seems everywhere I go, people are either bored of me or outright angry at me. However, that's all I seem to bring out in people today, especially at my workplace.

I'm glad that you found us here, welcome........