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Old Oct 19, 2011, 11:37 PM
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I tried so very hard to use everything I had in me to not. I struggled with it
My T told me that I have all these amazing resources within me that I don't use when I start to falter (Really, T... I have tried!)
Today, I don't know if it was because I didn't do it in a week, or if I'm super stressed, or maybe a mixture of both...
I took a pin in class and started scraping my arm...
And then when I got home, I mangled my left arm and right leg again.

I feel like such a failure. I hate looking at this and feeling so weak... And it'd not like I could talk to people about this, because I have no idea what I'd talk about...
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Old Oct 20, 2011, 01:32 AM
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((((((dismantle.repair)))))))))))

What tools/resources does your T think you have inside you? Have you asked? Get a list, maybe that could help?

I'm sorry you relapsed, but you are not a failure. Nor are you weak.

Talking to people is hard, maybe find people you trust and talk about how you're feeling and what stresses you out? You don't even have to mention SI if you don't want to.
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Old Oct 20, 2011, 12:43 PM
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Yes, I agree with Christina, can you talk to your therapist about this more and tell her how hard you are trying and try to explain to her what is going on/triggering you when you SI?
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Old Oct 20, 2011, 02:43 PM
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I think she meant all the extra 'coping strategies' I've had since starting therapy.
All the things I've worked out to do instead.
I try them. I really do... but sometimes I struggle

I don't know how to talk about what's triggering me, because I sincerely don't know how to explain any of it. I can't explain away the hurt and the anger towards myself. Half the time, I don't even know what's going on.
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Old Oct 20, 2011, 04:45 PM
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I can't explain away the hurt and the anger towards myself.
This sounds like a great place to start.
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Old Oct 20, 2011, 05:15 PM
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You're not a failure! Please stop beating yourself up over this. It wont change what happened. You are doing the right thing by getting therapy and trying to cope with your feelings. It will take some time, hang in there and don't give up.
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Old Oct 20, 2011, 05:30 PM
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This sounds like a great place to start.
That's about as far as I can take it... I don't know why I hurt. I don't know why I'm so angry....

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You're not a failure! Please stop beating yourself up over this. It wont change what happened. You are doing the right thing by getting therapy and trying to cope with your feelings. It will take some time, hang in there and don't give up.
I don't want to give up, but I don't know why she's asked why I don't already. :\
Reverse psychology is dangerous O.O
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Old Oct 21, 2011, 11:11 AM
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That's about as far as I can take it... I don't know why I hurt. I don't know why I'm so angry....
If you start to talk about it in therapy it might lead you to the answers.
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