[Lexicon78]

Everytime I fight with the damn bastard I want to cut. I can't seem to stop it...no matter what I do it won't stop. And sometimes I really don't want it to. Like tonight.

Another fight about the finances. I'm to blame for everything. So why not cut? Why not cut every inch of my body? It's so disgusting anyways, no one will freakin care anyways. Hell, I'd cut my throat if it'd help. I just don't know how to deal with any of this.

[SleepsWithButterFlies]

This dude is toxic and lethal to you....I wish you could hit or kick HIM instead cause youre mad at him BUT do NOT harm either of you..but I wish

[SerenitysWave]

<font color="purple"> Sorry Lexi....... You might not feel it now but you are a strong woman!

Even tho I do not know all the details of your relationship with your b/f, I agree with Sleeps.

Be sure to stay safe and take care of YOU! </font>

[ErinBear]

Hi Lexi,

It's so important to stay safe, and I hear you when you say that you have the strong desire to cut when you've been fighting with your b/f. It also sounds like there have been quite a lot of disagreements lately. Have the two of you thought of going to couples' counseling, either to learn about different ways of handling disagreements....that might be less upsetting to both of you....or evaluating your relationship with the help of a thrid party? I'm wondering if it is this unsafe for you and prompts you to do SI so much, or even crave it so much, if you really want to stay in this relationship. It sounds like it may not be a safe situation for you if you are fighting so much. It sounds incredibly stressful. Thinking of you and wishing you well - please take gentle care of yourself, Lexi.

Take care,
ErinBear

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((((((Lex))))))))))))))))))

[bipolar_bear]

I am so sorry that you are feeling so bad that you want to cut. Please re-evaluate your relationship as it seems to be continuously destructive to you. I hate to see you continue to go through this cycle. Try and be kind to yourself and stay safe.