Thank god for depression (possible trigger)

I've been so depressed lately that I havent even thought about self harming myself. This is good in away.

How is everybody else doing?

This is a good thing! I've been that depressed before...but only when I lost my mom to cancer. It's funny how you can feel like you've lost everything and the urge to cut isn't even there.

Hang in there.

Interesting. Could it be plain old sadness cutting through the depression? (To me, there's always been a difference. Can be hard to tell sometimes.)

I'm sure you guys think im nuts for praising depression.. I'm trying my best to stop this kind of self harm behavior. I told myself that if I dont stop cutting soon that I will force myself to be checked for tetanus and for possible HIV/AIDS every so often at the same hospital that i was admitted in the psych area.. This hospital is strict and won't hestitate to Baker act people for doing theses things. For those whos wanting why HIV/AIDS? I choose this so that i can scare myself more into STOPPING the cutting. I haven't cut for almost a whole month... I'm happy but i'm not happy because I have the words " Kill me" craved on my left ankle and I don't know if i can ever get rid of the nasty scar.

I know what you mean. I've told people not to worry about me so much when I'm cutting as when I'm not, because I didn't usually cut when I was at my worst. I don't think I really thought about it, but I'm not sure whether I was too scared of what I might do to cut then, or if I just wasn't bothering to try to cope even by cutting, or if I just plain didn't have the energy.

Helga, I hope that your scar goes away, and also that you will feel better soon and not need to cut.