[puzzclar]

I need to ask for help. But I don't know how to tell my sister. I live with her, and I need help. If you have been following what's going on,then you know the difficulty I have faced.... Things are getting worse, temptation is getting worse, and more intense. I need help, but I don't want to tell anyone... which is a slight problem. How do I tell her?? How do I ask for help??

Why do I have to face this? WHY?? Why do I have to face this alone, in real life I have no one to turn to, for help and support. Why can't I just have one person to help to be there for me, to help me make the decision??

[Mylifeisdepressing]

I'm sorry you're going through such a hard time right now. I wish I could help. All I can say is that I can sympathize, I know how hard it can be to open ip and tell someone something. I need to tell my parents about my depression so I can get help but I don't know how to do it yet. Best of luck to you I hope you get the help you need.

[nicoleb2]

I also have a hard time asking for help, my t has called 911 on me, more than once

Could you try and write a note, that way you don't actually have to say anything?

[Sanada]

Hello Puzzclar. (Happy New Year).

I found it really hard to ask my brother for help because he has such a different way of viewing the world to me. He knows that I have self harmed (in the last 8-9 months), when he saw my scars he responded in a way I did not anticipate. He was quite understanding and honest. He did not judge me. That was surprise to me, but telling him about it got it off my chest and he sees now what I am doing to, 'not do it'.
Firstly telling him deff helped me, it was a weight off my back.
Secondly he was honest to me without any opinion.
Thirdly he then understood me more.
Fourthly I am better for him knowing.

I dont know your sister or the 'true' details of your relationship with her. I would advise caution, and use your instinct to help guide you. It's really hard to open up to family members, that much I do know; but I was surprised with the response I got, he all of a sudden started to help me more and offer support when I needed it most.
I was surprised.

I hope you find the help and support you need irl from your sister.
I hoped this helped in any way.
tgc.
S
(p.s..I dont live with my brother, that may have made a difference)

[Sannah]

Please reach out to her Puzzclar............

[puzzclar]

Still haven't... I heard how much my boss needed people to travel a far distance to work for 4 hours... and through a time zone... I have an apt on Monday for pdoc and T on Tuesday. I just hope I can make it that long without to many hard times.

I have work, and that will distract me a bit. Then two nights of work, followed by a day of rest before school starts. Yes, waiting until Monday may be hard but I wont be home when my pdoc has hours.... I can get through this... I've done it before... Waited... Yes writing something down may just help, but well writing something down instead of saying it, well that may work... I'll try that one....and it's hard when you live with the person you want to tell...

[Sannah]

I'm so glad that you have your appts.

[puzzclar]

And at the same time I wonder if I can tell my pdoc in how bad things have been the last three and a half weeks. and the lecture that could happen... I don't want that one to come... He's lectured me enough...

[Sannah]

Can you tell him before you tell him how bad it has been that you don't want a lecture please?

[puzzclar]

I don't think he realizes that he is doing it. But the thoughts are still there, pdoc not in office, I really shouldn't be working, I really should be taking care of me, but I can't seem to tell anyone of what's going on. No one knows of what's going on, or what I'm thinking, which could be bad for me. I should talk with a professional tomorrow, with a new T if I have to... I have to do something quick, before the thoughts consume me.... like they are getting closer to every minute, I've noticed when they consume me, and I have to go inside and try to get away from the thoughts. But I'm scared of what could happen. I'm scared, since I don't have someone to talk to... must see a T in the office, I can't wait any longer.

[Sannah]

Can you go to a clinic or emergency room?

[puzzclar]

I know it's getting bad, but I can't bring up the courage to ask for help. I haven't told any member of my family. I have taken an anti-anxiety med to see if it could help, to have a clearer mind. I don't know what it is this time, I just can't seem to ask for help, I feel weak, I feel like I'm past help.I see my pdoc on Monday, I keep telling myself I"m okay, and that's what I would tell others, irl that is.

I'll continue to take the meds, and go to work, and get finances under control. I'll keep telling myself I'm fine. I will keep myself safe.

Finances are done, now just trying to let the meds kick in. If I have to live on meds, I will, Just to stay able to go to first days of classes, which is next week. I have to be there that first day, and then maybe afterwards I can get additional help... but not until after the fist class of each class... If this means going in to the hospital on Thursday night, then so be it. I"ll force myself to wait that long, to ignore what could happen, and just get the things done that I need to, to get my life in order before any hospitalizations.