Hello read my story concerning online addiction

Well first off iam a newbie here so dont get mad at me because i posted in the wrong forum but let me start off the story

Summer 2003
Well i was excited i had a ps2 and bought socom us navy seals with the network adaptor which made it capable of being played online and a headset or mic as you call it.
Biggest Mistake of my life
This game i played well for over 3 years staight stayed in my room and they came out with new realeases like socom 2 and 3 and bought 2 and quit after 2 The times i spent locked up in my room in the dark playing this game all day until soon i yelled at my parents had bad hygiene habits didnt do chores got mad if they asked me to do one i felt as if the whole world had gone down in front of me i didnt feel it then but i felt it after i decided to quit because my life fell apart literally i felt my parents hated me peers in school made fun of me cuz i played video games all day and looked like i just came out of a video game with my red eyes but one day on summer 2005 when i was leaving my aunt's house i saw her grandma she lived a good life she did things that were still active like walking i decided right then and there what was the point of life if i wasted pointless hours on the game and how many hours i spent was like 2000 on the games i think or more See i get addicted to things real easys i just dont know how to stop addiction to things

welcome to the forum.

You are a very intelligent person to realize that this is an addiction. That takes allot of maturity, introspection, honesty, and courage. You said that you get addicted to things real easy. Do you know why? What does this do for you emotionally? What wouldn't you have in your life (thrill, joy, something to fill time, friendship, etc) if it were gone? Have you found a close friend, family member, mentor, pastor or other to talk to about this? I don't list those questions necessarily to push you to answer them, but sometimes these are things we should think about. Why do I want this? Is there another way to meet this need? What resources in friends or others do I have to open up about this?

Again welcome to the forum.

1.No i dont know why maybe because nobody lives around me and i get bored real easy
2.i wouldnt want to have in my life is depression
3.no i never did
4.I feel like i ruined my life

You are such an intelligent person. You have not ruined your life, but I bet the pain of being lonley and having people around you not understand why you like to play the games is hard. In addition, having people make fun of you for playing the games is very cruel. There are people who will understand you. In fact, maybe this situation will give you a sensitivity to others who also feel lonley. -- and in the end make you turn out to be a stronger adult. Take a look around you and see if you can find an adult who will be kind and supportive of you and maybe you can strike up a relationship there.

Good luck!