[Abby]

My emotions have been all over the place the last few days, triggered by a situation that it isn't important to go into. I'm trying to do the opposite of what I want to do and that is always very stressful and hard.

Life would be a whole lot easier if emotions from one area of my life didn't seep into others areas of my life. I try hard to not let my feelings control me or how I behave but it is tiring. That is why I'd rather not have feelings at all.

No, that is too much....what I mean is I don't mind feeling just not when they are all-consuming...that's why I self harm sometimes just to regulate and control the feelings so they don't swamp me and destroy other areas in my life. Like work. Or to give myself some respite from them.

I've not hurt myself over these feelings, I'm trying hard to slowly see if I can resolve it without doing that but it is getting very difficult. If feelings weren't so constant it'd be easier! I hate feelings, they don't seem to be a positive aspect of life....or at least my life. Actually I guess I would rather do without them completely....

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((( Abby )))))))))))))))

[Sterella]

((((Abby))))
I understand where your coming from. I hated feeling anything I would always think "I would rather deal with no emotions, than have to put up with all the bad ones." I became very apathetic and distant. But when I talked to somebody IRL about my issues, it felt good. I don't know if it will help you, but I recommend talking to a counselor, family member, or other person about the swarm of emotions. My T really helped me understand my feelings.

[Sannah]

I agree, Abby can you talk to your T about the issue that has upset you?

[Abby]

I am trying to talk to my therapist about it all. The issue being what it is means that it isn't as straight-forward as other times in regards to talking through it all though. I am having to be quite reliant upon myself for the time being.

I'm feeling quite depressed but I don't want to show my family I am feeling this way because I'm not in the place to deal with them being too close to me. That is the problem though isn't it most of the time - the times when I need people the most is when they are the most scary. That isn't to say I don't trust my family because I do completely....it is beyond that...

Thank you for caring.

[aurill50]

Originally Posted by Abby

My emotions have been all over the place the last few days, triggered by a situation that it isn't important to go into. I'm trying to do the opposite of what I want to do and that is always very stressful and hard.

Life would be a whole lot easier if emotions from one area of my life didn't seep into others areas of my life. I try hard to not let my feelings control me or how I behave but it is tiring. That is why I'd rather not have feelings at all.

No, that is too much....what I mean is I don't mind feeling just not when they are all-consuming...that's why I self harm sometimes just to regulate and control the feelings so they don't swamp me and destroy other areas in my life. Like work. Or to give myself some respite from them.

I've not hurt myself over these feelings, I'm trying hard to slowly see if I can resolve it without doing that but it is getting very difficult. If feelings weren't so constant it'd be easier! I hate feelings, they don't seem to be a positive aspect of life....or at least my life. Actually I guess I would rather do without them completely....

Another good thing to do (if talking doesn't work) is maybe finds something to put all that energy from your emotions into something else other than cutting.

Usually, I paint, meditate, or go for a walk. Its not always easy granted cause I know how it feels to be absolutely consumed with sadness and having no energy to do anything. If you want to talk feel free to message me as I am a cutter too because I get overwhelmed with emotions and life.