not quite feeling right...

I am currently being treated for depression and have been pretty well for the last month or so, but over the past few days have been feeling weird, i dunno, i must can't put my finger on it...i'm certainly not showing any depressive symptoms but i have being tempted to cut over the past few days...it just seems to be creeping up on me and i have these thoughts were i can imagine the blood flowing out of my arms. i don't know what's causing this exactly, but i hafta see my mother in about a week and i don't want to b/c i don't get on with her. everytime i go near her i feel smoothered and resentful b/c she's had serious mental health problems for a very long time and she refuses to get help for them b/c she believes she doesn't have a problem apparently it'sa all my fault!!! so i really don't want her to visit me but she's coming so i'll hafta see her. I'm really dreading it and i'm not sure how to get thru it w/out self-harm

((( zombie))) I don't know how to help as right now I am not in a great place either but I wanted to let you know..someone see's you here and does care..me and more will come who will be of better help but for now know...others care

maybe you can puts somet boundaries on how long she can stay. Also what might help is having friends over when she visit. For me it takes the stress off of it. Maybe going out to dinner introducing your friends to her. Maybe you can arrange some outings that make things less stressful like going to the movies. Also.. you still can let her know that you have plans while she visits. You can go to the library for a few hours alone or plan something to go see a friend. Hope things go well!