Parents Found Out...(Might Trigger)

So I was helping my mom with something and she saw the cut on my wrist, then she forced me to show her my stomach. I had covered the cuts on my stomach with band-aids earlier because they were looking really bad. Well, she made me take them off. So she was like all shocked and stuff, because some of them are like really bad looking. Anyway, she was like when did you start again, I said about a week ago, and she was like, oh when I was so upset. I said that wasn't the reason, but she said it was and blames herself. It really isn't the reason, I don't know the reason. She said that we had to tell my dad. My dad wants me to go see a hypnotist, which I've seen before, but I don't think that it will make any difference. I mean, how is someone else supposed to help me when I don't even know what's wrong. I know that my parents are just worried, and want to help, but I don't want them to worry, and I don't know that I can be helped. (sigh) this has just escalated everything and now I feel worse than ever.

<font color=green>I smile because I have no idea what's going on.</font color=green>

It is kind of you to not want your parents to worry but quite honestly that is what parents should be doing. We worry about our kids all the time over little things and over big things. We love our children and want the very best for them. Sometimes we truely mess up big time and blow things out of proportion and act like imbeciles but that is just because we are human and sometimes we just don't know what the right thing is to do. Your mom may be right about why you started again, she may be totally off base either way give it some thought. It is clear that they want to help you, try to let them do it. Let them worry about you, it will drive you nuts but at least you will know they love you.
Carrie

To whom do I owe the biggest apology? No one's been crueler then I've been to me.
I am sorry to myself, my apologies begin here before everybody else.
I am sorry to myself, for treating me worse then I would anybody else. --Alanis Moresette

Thanks to both of you. My mom told me that she's been worrying about me since before I was even born, and that there's nothing I can do about it. I know this, but I don't want to add to the worry. Anyway, I did get to talk to my therapist today, just over the phone, but it helped at least a little. I won't get to see her til Jan still...but I guess I'll deal until then. I'm gonna try to get an aquaintance of mine (can't bring myself to say friend) to go shopping with me sat, if she doesn't have to work. I have got to get out of this house, otherwise I will completely loose my mind! Thanks for you help again. I really am feeling better.

~Kati~

<font color=green>I smile because I have no idea what's going on.</font color=green>