[GogMagog]

I want it to stop and the only way that seems possible is either running away or dying and the former never worked, never, I tried and it didn't and it just got worse and the latter I tried too but it didn't work and I don't see any other options but to just try one of them again. And dying seems so much easier. Like sleeping, permanently. People treat it with so much fear, like it's a terrible thing--but it happens to everyone. It's the natural order and what difference does it make if it happens sooner rather than later to me?

[Sannah]

Hi Gog, welcome to PC. Do you have a therapist?

[mazing]

Nick, I just replied to your other thread and want to say - don't give up I can't begin to imagine what you must be going through but it won't always have to be like this. I know things seem impossible right now but it can change.

You can have an amazing life ahead of you. Please reach out to someone for support - a teacher, friend, or even support line. Everyone deserves to be heard and receive support. No-one should have to feel like there isnt a way out.

[GogMagog]

Thank you. I don't have a therapist, I don't think my father would approve of that. It'd be nice to be able to talk things out with someone but I don't see that happening in the near future... And thank you so much, mazing. That's exactly what it seems, impossible. All of it. I don't know who I could tell or talk to--the teachers would just tell my father and my friends aren't that close of friends. I mean there's this one friend who wants to know more and more about me but it's really intimidating and too close for comfort and I think telling her would mean her telling a teacher which would, of course, go back to my father. I think my best bet is what I said in the other post (sorry that there are two of these) about a shelter. I found a few in my area, so, if I need to I could go there.

[mazing]

As I said in the other thread, that sounds like a really good idea