[greyclouds]

I just self harmed for the first time since November,
I feel nothing towards it only that I want to feel it again.
Tomorrow morning will be the hang over of guilt but for tonight I do not care.

I hate BPD, i hate all that caused it, I hate that I can't see what's real and what's not.

I hate that the only thing that feels real is the sensation of holding that lighter to my wrist.

I ****ing hate mental illness and everything it makes is feel, do and say.

[mazing]

I definitely understand the feeling. Everyone struggles but you can get up again. Try to take it easy on yourself - now and if you do begin to feel guilt over it.

Take is slow - try and focus on activities that help you to relax. Movies, books, writing. Whatever it may be that can help you thorugh.

Hang in there

[AngelWolf3]

How are you today...I just saw this, or I would have replied to you yesterday (I had logged off for the day about half an hour before you posted).

[greyclouds]

Originally Posted by AngelWolf3

How are you today...I just saw this, or I would have replied to you yesterday (I had logged off for the day about half an hour before you posted).

Hi Hun, that's okay, yeah much better today thank you,

I don't have to much guilt about what I did.
Just going to put it down to a moment.

Hope you are keeping well ((hugs))

[wishIwouldchange]

Great job making it sense November. That was an accomplishment and nothing to be ashamed about. That time all counts, and I am proud of you. I hope today is going much better for you.

I read something today that encouraged me. I hope this encourages you!

Just for today, I remember I am cable, I am worthwhile, I am beautiful, I am lovable and I shall accept both my strengths and weaknesses for they are me. I will no longer believe the lie that if I make a mistake I am a mistake. My mistakes are the learning tools that I shall encounter on my life journey.