[puzzclar]

Say you stay awake all night, or not eat correctly, or just forget to take care of yourself. Is this considered SI?

I know what I have said in the past about asking if it is SI, but I'm curious about what people think on this topic.



On another side note.
Overall this week, I have had a Crappy week, full of SUI thoughts. It's getting to be way too much for me. Not to mention all of the things I have discovered this week.I am tempted to just stay up all night, and find something to do. I'm going to try to exercise tomorrow. But as for tonight, I'll just try to not give in to the SUI thoughts. and no hospitalization is not a good idea for me. I will see my T tomorrow. and If I Need to I'll make an appointment for Friday if need be.

[Perna]

There are lots of reasons why one might stay up all night, based on various diagnoses; if you are bipolar or depressed, etc., they can be symptoms rather than self-injury. I would talk to my therapist and doctor(s) and try to take better care of myself so crappy weeks can be better handled and don't get out of control. Staying up all night usually does not immediately injure or help anything, SI usually serves an immediate physical purpose.

[Sam2]

Take this question to your therapist. Usually, SI is something that is done to purposely hurt yourself, or punish yourself. That being said, it concerns me that your mind is thinking about SI.

You don't want to start SI because it can get out of control very quickly and is just a symptom of a deeper problem. Once you start the behavior, it can be extrememly hard to stop. If you can catch it now, you may be able to escape a lot of trouble.

Please let us know how things went and whether you are ok or not. Don't ever feel that you can't come.

Sam2

[puzzclar]

I am okay, I just have a harder time right now controlling my thoughts. It's taking quite a bit to not want to reach for something to hurt myself with.

Also my sister has no idea what's going on. Since she has been moody and I just don't want to talk to her. Since she is not the support that I really need right now. I just wish.... I had someone to really talk to, about anything and everything. Like it didn't matter what I said, just as long as it got out in a safe way...

I sooooo want to hurt myself, at least the pain would interrupt all of the thought processes that are going on right now.

[puzzclar]

What a rough day.

I just have to post to see if I can get my frustrations out, so I can continue to get things done before finally crashing.

I've been so paralyzed with fear. Fear of what? Success, failure, life, death, thinking of suicide. In fact I failed to get a paper in because I just couldn't stand it. I feel like if I actually do something or try, that it will go the other direction.

Well now that it's out, I can forget about the fear, and just keep on going. There has to be something worth working towards, out there.

[skeksi]

I have definitely had a problem with this for many years. I will stay up late (mostly to avoid the terror of going to sleep) even though I know how terribly it affects my mood and health. I will work far past the point of productivity, neglecting my own health and self-care like cleaning my house, going to the gym, shopping for healthy food, etc. It's so HARD to take care of myself. I don't feel like I have a right to do it.

I don't know if I consider it SI, but I definitely consider it the opposite of self-care, just like SI is. I have been trying to change my habits the last few months to take better care of myself, and it has made a big difference--well-rested! Healthily fed! Exercised and ready to work hard! But it is so hard to sustain and not fall back into my old habits.