[GirlOfManyFaces]

**trigger**

I'm desperate. I need to cut. I'm going to lose it if I don't hurt myself... Badly
I'm so stressed. And so depressed. I can't take it any more. I don't know what to do.
I know cutting is bad so I'm trying to find a solution before I take out my frustrations on my body.
But I'm not sure how much longer I can resist.

I need help! PLEASE!!! I'm about to break.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE HELP! Advice would be great

[grey_aj]

Hey there,

If you can really think and identify the causes of your stress and depression, then you're already halfway there... cutting doesn't make our problems go away, it just lets us stop thinking about them, even if it's only a little while. But the root problem doesn't go away. Don't let cutting define who you are... it's not something that's part of you but rather something that you have imposed on yourself that's hard to get rid of. If you could talk to somebody, anybody, about it in real life that would help too.

I know that what I've said is probably not of much help, but I just wanted to let you know that we're all here for you!

- AJ

[Silent_Tears_17]

Try cutting a piece of paper or a stuffed animal. I hate hurting stuffed animals but it really is better than hurting you. Just stabbing my pillow with an exacto knife makes me feel better, and its better than hurting me. Do you have a T or someone at school (a teacher or friend) you could talk to. I know it is really hard to get help but it will make you feel so much better... even just knowing someone knows what you are going through and cares about you can make all the difference in the world. I also find drawing helps me... I like drawing razors or images of what I want to do and that helps especially since you can keep it and look back on it... its like a scar not on your body. I hope this helps... keep us updated

[GirlOfManyFaces]

Originally Posted by Silent_Tears_17

. Do you have a T or someone at school (a teacher or friend) you could talk to. . I hope this helps... keep us updated

I have nobody. Nobody understands. I've tried so many things. And it just doesn't help...
I'm doing terrible
I'm so alone

[Idiot17]

I don't have any advice for you-sorry, being that I'm in a similar position. But just want you to know that ppl here care. Sending lots of well wishes and hugs your way. ((((hugs))))

[Silent_Tears_17]

Originally Posted by GirlOfManyFaces

I have nobody. Nobody understands. I've tried so many things. And it just doesn't help...
I'm doing terrible
I'm so alone

You really need help. Go to a school counselor or teacher or doctor. They can help you feel so much better. I promise.

Originally Posted by GirlOfManyFaces

I have nobody. Nobody understands. I've tried so many things. And it just doesn't help...
I'm doing terrible
I'm so alone

I encourage you to keep posting and letting us know how you are. I'm sorry you are hurting and in so much pain
What are the things that trigger you most? It seems that you are so unhappy and being alone is scary and can be very dark. are you able to talk to a counselor at school? let us know if we can help in any way.
warm thoughts

[GirlOfManyFaces]

Originally Posted by Silent_Tears_17

You really need help. Go to a school counselor or teacher or doctor. They can help you feel so much better. I promise.

I can't

Originally Posted by chilekat2

I encourage you to keep posting and letting us know how you are. I'm sorry you are hurting and in so much pain
What are the things that trigger you most? It seems that you are so unhappy and being alone is scary and can be very dark. are you able to talk to a counselor at school? let us know if we can help in any way.
warm thoughts

Everything triggers me. EVERYTHING!!! I can't do anything without being triggered.

I have NOBODY to talk to... Just PC

I'm lost and alone

[Silent_Tears_17]

Why can't you? What is stopping you? How old r u and what country are you in? Not trying to invade privacy. I'm just trying to help.

[GirlOfManyFaces]

Originally Posted by Silent_Tears_17

Why can't you? What is stopping you? How old r u and what country are you in? Not trying to invade privacy. I'm just trying to help.

I just can't. I'm 14 and in Texas... I can't help myself... And it is awful

[Silent_Tears_17]

Why don't u email me. Ok? Email writers_workshop_umd@yahoo.com. Ok. We will at least be able to talk. I'm 17 and I was/am in a situation like yours. Ok?

[Idiot17]

No advice, as usual, but ((((hugs))))

[a bland]

one of my best grounding objects is taking a sheet of paper and writing a bunch of names of different colors, but when u write the color use a different color marker to write it with. for example, if u write the word purple write it in yellow then the next write green but use a red marker to write it. after u have written about 20 or so names of colors in a different color. then u read it. first try reading the name of the color. read all the names of colors. when ur done try reading all the names of colors, read the all actully color of the marker u used. it will work both sides of ur brain, because one side of ur brain reads words and the other sees color. there is a name for this but i cant remember it. i hope i explained it ok.

[GirlOfManyFaces]

Originally Posted by a bland

one of my best grounding objects is taking a sheet of paper and writing a bunch of names of different colors, but when u write the color use a different color marker to write it with. for example, if u write the word purple write it in yellow then the next write green but use a red marker to write it. after u have written about 20 or so names of colors in a different color. then u read it. first try reading the name of the color. read all the names of colors. when ur done try reading all the names of colors, read the all actully color of the marker u used. it will work both sides of ur brain, because one side of ur brain reads words and the other sees color. there is a name for this but i cant remember it. i hope i explained it ok.

Thank you.i will try this

[ThisWayOut]

Originally Posted by GirlOfManyFaces

**trigger**

I'm desperate. I need to cut. I'm going to lose it if I don't hurt myself... Badly
I'm so stressed. And so depressed. I can't take it any more. I don't know what to do.
I know cutting is bad so I'm trying to find a solution before I take out my frustrations on my body.
But I'm not sure how much longer I can resist.

I need help! PLEASE!!! I'm about to break.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE HELP! Advice would be great

I'm sorry, but I could not bring myself to read much beyond the first few posts... I know it's scary to try to get help, but you really need something beyond what this forum can provide. If you are telling us you are going to hurt yourself really badly, then you need to go to an ED. Tell a friend, a family member, your teacher, WHOEVER, just GO! It's not fair to those of us reading to have to try to pull you out of this... I know I have no idea who you really are, but my heart goes out to you and I care. It makes me sad and upset to see you hurting... and it makes me want to pull my hair out when people so adamantly refuse the help that is suggested... Maybe it's me. Maybe I should just stop reading the posts that say "PLEASE HELP" in the title, because I feel like every time I do, I just want to cry... You are obviously suffering a lot to want to hurt yourself so badly. I have an idea of what it feels like, because I've been to emotional places like that, recently even... but PLEASE GO TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM. Worst case: they admit you to a unit where they at least keep you safe from yourself. Best case: someone reaches out in real life and offers some outpatient professional help to start you on the path to healing...

Sometimes there are real reasons why a person cannot get the help they need that no one else can understand. We need to be respectful of that. Sometimes just saying, "I'm sorry you're hurting, I'm here if you need to talk" is a lot more helpful then saying go to and ED or something along those lines.

[smmath]

Originally Posted by a bland

one of my best grounding objects is taking a sheet of paper and writing a bunch of names of different colors, but when u write the color use a different color marker to write it with. for example, if u write the word purple write it in yellow then the next write green but use a red marker to write it. after u have written about 20 or so names of colors in a different color. then u read it. first try reading the name of the color. read all the names of colors. when ur done try reading all the names of colors, read the all actully color of the marker u used. it will work both sides of ur brain, because one side of ur brain reads words and the other sees color. there is a name for this but i cant remember it. i hope i explained it ok.

It's called the Stroop Effect. I never thought to use this psych-thing as a grounding technique. so Thanks for the idea. It does take a lot of focus to say the color and not read the word.

[GirlOfManyFaces]

Originally Posted by Court_Knee

Sometimes there are real reasons why a person cannot get the help they need that no one else can understand. We need to be respectful of that. Sometimes just saying, "I'm sorry you're hurting, I'm here if you need to talk" is a lot more helpful then saying go to and ED or something along those lines.

That's right. Thanks