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Old Oct 07, 2013, 08:01 PM
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I just don't know what to do. I have no happiness left

I NEED a release from pain. I don't want it to be this but... I feel like it's the only choice.

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Old Oct 07, 2013, 08:28 PM
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I know it seems absolutely impossible right now but the pain can end. I don't know how, or when, or why it's so unbearable, but I know you can't just end yourself. That doesn't only end the pain, it ends everything. If you need to talk don't be afraid to message me.
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Old Oct 07, 2013, 08:30 PM
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You know I'd be devastated if you left us. I love you and I'm here for you, keep fighting it please!
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Old Oct 07, 2013, 08:30 PM
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I know, I don't want to do it or anything. Not making plans either. I love you too

I just don't know if I can hold on anymore. The suffering has lasted too long. I'm sick of going through it. I just want it to end. I need it to
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Old Oct 07, 2013, 08:42 PM
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I can't think of even one thing that makes me happy anymore.
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Old Oct 07, 2013, 10:49 PM
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Neither can I right now, but we have to stay strong, just please don't as me what for. It's our instinct.
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Old Oct 08, 2013, 12:33 AM
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I just don't know what to do. I have no happiness left

I NEED a release from pain. I don't want it to be this but... I feel like it's the only choice.
I think you might have a chemical imbalance, I brother and I both have it- I don't know if you would consider meds, but they can help you feel whole again.
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Old Oct 08, 2013, 07:00 AM
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Old Oct 08, 2013, 10:17 AM
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You have no happiness left......... I get that.

BUT - I also see that you come here daily. And every day MANY people respond to your posts. They reach out to you. They are trying to support you. They care about you.

Don't these people mean anything to you?
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Old Oct 08, 2013, 10:24 AM
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I just don't know what to do. I have no happiness left

I NEED a release from pain. I don't want it to be this but... I feel like it's the only choice.
Sounds like the depression talking. You have to fight it. You have people who care and would like to help. I don't remember from your previous posts if you are on meds are not but if you are I would see my doctor for an adjustment. Or if you are like me and med resistant, I just keep hoping the next one will work. Hope is what we hang on to. It gets us through the dark of night and the light of day. You can do this, stay with us, there is always hope.
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Old Oct 08, 2013, 02:38 PM
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I know, im hoping. I don't want to let anyone down.
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Old Oct 08, 2013, 02:51 PM
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Fight the good fight Poppy.... I think you can beat this.
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Old Oct 08, 2013, 04:39 PM
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So sorry you're feeling so hopeless but like others have said, there is hope. You just can't see it right now Maybe it's time to speak to doc? You can do this Poppy hang in there.
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Old Oct 09, 2013, 07:25 PM
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Old Oct 09, 2013, 07:35 PM
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The thing I don't like about suicide is it's so final. You can't change your mind.
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Old Oct 09, 2013, 08:03 PM
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I don't think I want to change my mind.
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Old Oct 09, 2013, 08:19 PM
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I just want it to end... please
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Old Oct 09, 2013, 08:49 PM
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Old Oct 10, 2013, 10:48 PM
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Is it too much to ask for one night free of suicidal thoughts?
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Old Oct 11, 2013, 04:59 AM
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Sorry love know that I am there with you holding your hand, even when I am sleeping
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Old Oct 21, 2013, 06:20 AM
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Is it too much to ask for one night free of suicidal thoughts?
Hello Poppy Princess-I read through this thread hoping to see that there was some ease in your suicidal thoughts and feelings but then the thread just stopped. I hope that you are okay and still with us. I also want you to know that I understand. I have been struggling with hopeless thoughts and feelings for the past several years. Some days are so bad and I think I won't make it another minute. Someone on this thread said that suicide is so final and that is the truth. There is no going back. I try to tell myself that I don't know what will happen tomorrow and if I end it all I will never know. But it is so hard, I know. Do you have anyone who you can talk to face to face? I'm almost completely isolated and that is hard, dealing with this stuff alone. If you ever want to talk you can always message me. I am here to listen. I can see that so many wonderful people replied to your thread-and they all want you to keep going, to stick around. So do I. I hope you decided to stay.
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Old Oct 21, 2013, 08:17 AM
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Old Oct 21, 2013, 09:26 AM
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Glad to hear hope the thoughts aren't as strong today.
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Old Oct 21, 2013, 11:52 AM
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glad you're still here.

i know exactly what you mean about suicidal feelings- sometimes it would be so nice to have a break from them
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Old Oct 21, 2013, 11:08 PM
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I came back to check if you had posted and was glad to see you are still here. I hope you are feeling a little better.
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