[tealBumblebee]

Trigger Warning:

So I don't plan on killing myself anytime soon, but i'm not convinced that I won't ever do it. When I was around 12, I took a bottle of pills. Even though my parents (who found the empty pill bottle despite my denial of taking the pills) did not take me to the hospital, all I did was sleep and feel like I was going to die until like two days later (the days are a blur so maybe more but at least 2) when I ended up violently vomiting everything I ingested.

So. Ever since, i've been weary of pills. However, I don't think its unfair to want a painless suicide when the time comes, so I've done research on everything from [edit: probably shouldn't list methods so insert common/uncommon methods here]. I seriously have made out a list of at least 20 possible ways, and there was only like 2-3 things I'd even consider.

Is something seriously wrong with me that I become legitimately frustrated that I can't find a painless way to die? Again, I'm not feeling that way (I promise) but I would be comforted in knowing that I at least have the option and am not a slave to living.

[gayleggg]

That's what I've been looking for too, so when it gets time I will have a way out, preferrably painless. So you are not the only one.

[Fuzzybear]

[smmath]

I too have been wary of pills ever since my attempt, and I have told myself that I would never do it like that again. But to this day, I have planned on ending my life in the future. I am not suicidal, I just know that I will die by that way. So I can relate to what you are experiencing.

I have tried LOTS of pills..... bottles (plural) of them.

I do not think pills work. Guns are messy - so not an option for me. (plus they made me sell all my guns).

But I hope you choose to live.

[gayleggg]

Silly people only took my bullets and left me with the gun. Of course, I don't consider that a good option.

[unaluna]

You are probably young enough that the baby boomers will have changed the laws by the time its your time. I mean, look how fast they changed that b.s. law or guideline or whatever tf it was that ob-gyns could only have male patients. Like super fast. The wave is gonna come and youll be home free. Its the next thing after medical marijuana, mark my words. O course, with pot legal, you wont want to die yet!

[tealBumblebee]

Originally Posted by hankster

You are probably young enough that the baby boomers will have changed the laws by the time its your time. I mean, look how fast they changed that b.s. law or guideline or whatever tf it was that ob-gyns could only have male patients. Like super fast. The wave is gonna come and youll be home free. Its the next thing after medical marijuana, mark my words. O course, with pot legal, you wont want to die yet!

Well, I don't do pot. But are you saying that they'll find a legal less harmful method in the near future?

[sabby]

Folks, please remember that our guidelines don't allow for discussion of suicidal threats or actions, this also includes the means in which you plan on your action.

Since Psych Central is a support site, we support life. While we understand the need to discuss suicidal ideation, we cannot condone discussing ways of action.

Thanks for your understanding of this matter.

With Care,
sabby

[Yoda]

After watching an episode of Nancy Grace in which a forensic doctor described how simple it was to prepare a particular suicide method I could not help but think how simple and nontraumatic that way of suicide would be. I don't think that was quite the intent that Nancy had intended for her audience but it was informative. A bit too informative.

I later described this method to my pdoc and told him if I ever chose to kill myself that way would be my choice and we talked about the method pros and cons. Pretty much we decided there is no such thing as a perfect method because nothing is foolproof and it would really suck to be brain damaged but live.

Of course I am not any where near wanting to kill myself then or now and hope I don't ever make that choice but my point is that thinking about suicide is not abnormal (IMO) until you get to the part where you intend to follow through and attempt suicide.

(I did attempt suicide by overdose when I had postpartum depression and was not in my right mind and my call for help to my ob doc was ignored as he said just drink a beer). Stupid doctor What I learned from that experience is if you are really in crisis and you don't get the support you need keep seeking help from other people and if all else fails go to an emergency dept.

[SeekerOfLife]

Thanks for this important reminder, sabby. When I did my "dirty deed", I knew while I lay in the hospital how wrong and foolish I had been. I told the Lord all about it, and asked to live and promised Him I would never do it again. I have had some really horrible days since that time, but I no longer consider sui an option. I understand well the desire to escape the pain of whatever is hurting so badly, but by my own choice I will not allow myself to think that way anymore.

[Victoria'smom]

I always get frustrated about the more productive plans not leaving my body intaked or painful.

Well... both of my major attempts have been with pills & the most recent one would have succeeded had I not been found. Personally I believe painless suicide is within reach now. Perhaps you just haven't hit on the right methodology yet?

Oh, & while we're on the subject, a couple of posters mentioned guns. People think guns are a surefire ticket to the promised land. Well, they're not. Certainly they can be. But using a gun can also go array. And when it does, the results can be really disgusting! I know because I've worked with people who thought a gun was their ticket to paradise...

[Yoda]

Originally Posted by The Skeezyks

Oh, & while we're on the subject, a couple of posters mentioned guns. People think guns are a surefire ticket to the promised land. Well, they're not. Certainly they can be. But using a gun can also go array. And when it does, the results can be really disgusting! I know because I've worked with people who thought a gun was their ticket to paradise...

I wasn't going to comment on outcomes when attempting suicide by gun but since you brought it up I will. 10% of people who try that method survive. That would totally suck to mess yourself over and then survive in a worse state than you were before the attempt.

[waggiedog]

Yeah, I'm seeing where you are all coming from, and I agree. It's never gonna be easy. it's not meant to be ''easy''.

HUGZZ and LOVES, as ever XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

[guest1234567]

well since we can't discuss methods, i will say that i've made 2x once as a pre teen, once as a teenager and once in college however not since then. though i think about it. what does it mean our site is pro life? why shouldn't it pro humane? i'm 39 it never ends. i'm tired. i think that i'm very logical and i wish that i could get advice from a logical person about their opinion about how much is enough. can these messages be tracked back to me?

[DocJohn]

There are many other sites online where a person can go and talk about suicide methods until their heart's content. We are not one of those communities, nor do we have any interest in becoming a community where suicide methods are exchanged.

Because of that, I'm closing this thread. Discussion of specific suicide methods is against the community guidelines. Thanks for your cooperation.

DocJohn