Longer session due to admitting to need to SH

I saw one of my therapists on Tuesday night, and for the first time ever went over our session by 30 minutes. Thankfully I'm her last session and at night, so it wasn't a big deal. However I have never had a therapist keep me past my appointment for stating that I was still highly anxious and had the urge to go home and cut. She had me sign a note saying I would try 5 things before, and I probably got through 2-3 before I gave in. I don't see her until Thursday night, I see a T on Tuesday morning for IOP, and on Wednesday night with my husband joining me. I know I'll probably end up cutting again by her next session bc of how anxious I am about starting IOP and having my husband with me. I'm worried about telling her next time I see her given this weeks session.

It is nice that she cared enough to stay with you as long as she could. I think that is important to be honest with her and tell her what is going on and that you did cut again. She can't help you unless you are completely honest. Just explain that you tried your best not to cut but you still need to work on trying the other things and maybe think of new ideas that could help. My therapist threatens to tell my family if I cut myself again (I am 24 btw and only put them as an emergency contact) yea I am pretty sure my therapist isn't very good with the confidentiality but it sounds like yours is truly trying to help. Good luck.

I'll end up telling her, if she asks which I'm sure she will. Plus one spot is on my wrist so it's pretty visible. I've never had a therapist threaten to tell my emergency contact because of cutting. But my therapist is wanting my husband to come in this week's session to do a safety plan together because of me overdosing.

Are you comfortable with your husband coming in to a session?

No, not in the least bit, but I agreed to it because my therapist said it will only to have him try to agree to a safety plan.

**Trigger warning**

Before I last overdosed, my therapist had asked for my husband to agree to hold onto my pills or else he said he'd admit me because I said I didn't trust myself to not od. My husband did call and left a message agreeing to it, but didn't actually do anything. When I did overdose, I ended up passing out and my husband didn't call for help or anything.

So according to my therapist, it's for my safety to bring him in. I told my therapist that I'm extremely worried that it will do more harm than good, but he wants me to try and see how it goes. I feel like it's an ultimatum. That either he comes in or be admitted.

I think that it is a good idea because it's for your safety. Do you know why your husband didn't do anything?

He says that 1) He didn't want me to be admitted and 2) I passed out during sex. Oops.

I'm thinking that maybe, that was a good thing that she made you stay in the therapy room (or wherever you do therapy). If she would have let you go, you probably would have self-harmed by whichever means that you do it by, and she didn't want to release you if she knew that you had self-harm intentions. Your husband, however, in my opinion, maybe watch you a bit closer than he does, so that he can keep tabs on your recovery from this.
I don't know what happened to make you want to self-harm, but whatever it was, it's probably over now, and you should start to feel a bit better about it. If it's something that lasts a long time (i.e. someone else you know self-harming, and you're worried about them), different story.
I hope that this helps...