I just can't seem to stop lately. Don't have the self control or the willpower. The urges are always much stronger than me. And I can't be bothered to fight them. I just keep giving in. Only, I'm not cutting...haven't cut for a couple of weeks. Instead I am just constantly taking small overdoses. Almost daily for the last couple of weeks. I just don't care. I sit there at work and just shove pills down my throat. The urges just build and build throughout the day until I give in. I can't cope anymore. Just want to keep hurting myself as much as possible.

[RedSun]

I don't know what to say to help. But I wanted to send you big hugs, and good thoughts....can you feel them?
Red xxx

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[ifst5]

Have you spoken to anyone about this? What are their thoughts?

I would never tell someone to stop self harming, no matter what form it took, but overdosing is physically very damaging; i would hate for you to end up with chronic liver trouble or worse...

I know you've been feeling very low lately - who else can you turn to for support? Are your parents aware of the situation? Get on the phone to PALS if you need a more urgent psych appointment. What about hospitalization?

Please know i care for you - as does our group. You can bend my ear anytime

Yeah I know it's not good, just can't seem to stop it :/ my parents know that I'm not feeling good but they don't know about the overdosing. My cc knows about it and I'm seeing her again tomorrow... Think she is arranging a review with the doctor but tbh yeah I think I need hospital to break this habit because I can't seem to do it on my own. So will see how it goes tomorrow and what she suggests and take it from there....

[ifst5]

I think if you know in your gut that you need hospital treatment then GO - or at least state plainly to the CPN that this is what needs to happen. You know what's best for you - they're just there to try and assist where they can. I would definitely ask for that review irrespective of whether you do decide to go as it's good to try and keep the team involved and there ready and informed for when you come out.

Keep us informed

Well I've been referred to the crisis team and they are coming out tomorrow to see me. Will see what happens after that I guess....

[Fuzzybear]