[Silent_Tears_17]

I have been a SI for about 6yrs. My T's know, but they really don't ever ask. I never bring it up, but then sometimes they say something in which they assume I don't anymore.
My family, too acts as if I haven't been SI-ing in years. It's getting worse now, which honestly I don't really mind. I'm just wondering what other people have experienced. Thanks.

[secretgalaxy]

Since I told my T about my SIing, she asks every single time if I have done any more and asks to see them. Usually I let her see. For me, I kind of like it, because it keeps me in check, but at the same time I sometimes wish it could go back to being only my secret. Some times she tries to focus on the emotions that were going on when I do SI, but I end up mumbling around it, because I just don't want to know what I was feeling, that's the major reason I SI. I have lied to her before when she asked but she knew right away, so that didn't work. I have been able to control myself better but only because I have to get surgery done, so I am going to be around doctors for a while.

My family doesn't know that I still do, because when I told them about it, I thought I had stopped for good. That was 3 years ago and it has gotten worse, but they don't know a thing. Even my T thinks that I am getting better because I haven't SI'd in a while, but actually, I am doing a lot worse mentally, I'm just better at hiding from everyone now.

[celtic.starlite]

My old T would ask at random sessions and if I did she'd ask to see.
My new T, she has only asked once in the month that I've been seeing her, I think. It was just this past week.

[RedSun]

My t knows, but she also talked about it as if it was something I did in the past. I emailed her saying that i needed her to ask about it, cos mine is getting worse too. She asked, that was two sessions ago, and we talked about it, but she didn't bring it up last session at all. I would like it if she did ask, like Galaxy, it would keep it in check I think, though I don't know why. I'm sorry that you're hurting. If you could email your t and ask to bring it up it might help. Xxxxx

[tealBumblebee]

My T asks on random sessions if I have. I haven't figured out her pattern. I think if I haven't mentioned it in a while, she'll ask how its been going. She doesn't ask to see them anymore, probably because I have them in less visible spots now. Lately we've been working on ways to curb the behavior so we'll be talking about them more often I suppose.

[monkeybrains21]

T asks me every time. Never asks to see and I wouldn't show anyways if she asked. I don't make it a habit to undress in front of others.

[tealBumblebee]

Originally Posted by monkeybrains21

...I don't make it a habit to undress in front of others.

I used to cut on my lower leg and she asked to see it there. But I stopped almost immediately after I started cutting again because it wasn't that easy to hide. I've also chosen to show her a carving on my arm (she said I was testing her); and beyond that i've never shown her anything else. I could because sometimes I take pictures but i've never shared them with anyone (their like my own personal porn collection lol) but she doesn't know that I do.

[TheWell]

My T asks here and there. I've agreed to tell them (I have an individual and a group T) if I have. Most of the time I do and if I don't right away I do come clean that I have sooner or later.

I know they are trying to help me and they can't help me if they don't know.

[Espresso]

I'm asked almost every time.

[ifst5]

Originally Posted by Silent_Tears_17

I have been a SI for about 6yrs. My T's know, but they really don't ever ask. I never bring it up, but then sometimes they say something in which they assume I don't anymore.
My family, too acts as if I haven't been SI-ing in years. It's getting worse now, which honestly I don't really mind. I'm just wondering what other people have experienced. Thanks.

My experience has been pretty much the same as yours. Health professionals know that i self harm quite badly but as i'm also completely disinterested in what i'm doing to myself, so by extension, are they.

Why are you asking this though if you don't really care? Are you perhaps more worried about where this is heading than you originally thought? It's ok to want to be cared for. And quite frankly your health care providers should want to help you should you require such help. That's their job.

I hope you have somewhere to turn too should you feel increasingly at risk.

[iheartjacques]

Mine's never asked.

[Silent_Tears_17]

Originally Posted by tealBumblebee

I used to cut on my lower leg and she asked to see it there. But I stopped almost immediately after I started cutting again because it wasn't that easy to hide. I've also chosen to show her a carving on my arm (she said I was testing her); and beyond that i've never shown her anything else. I could because sometimes I take pictures but i've never shared them with anyone (their like my own personal porn collection lol) but she doesn't know that I do.

I take pics too. I need them because I dont remember things accurately. I remember them better than they are. I need to see them so I remember what I did and how much it hurt. my T asked to see once and i just lifted my sleeve b/c I cut my thighs and stomach too, but those are obviously more hidden. She was surprised there were fresh cuts and never asked again. I do the carvings to. I love them and I know I shouldn't. Nothing i do is ever deep, but the words mean so much more than just random lines. Hugs. Feel better.

[ThisWayOut]

my t asks about it most sessions, but never asked to see, as I haven't even told her where I cut yet... I did ask her this past session to do some digging to see if it it was in records accessible to her. I hope she doesn't find the info, I'm having major second-thoughts around it...

[Silent_Tears_17]

Originally Posted by ifst5

My experience has been pretty much the same as yours. Health professionals know that i self harm quite badly but as i'm also completely disinterested in what i'm doing to myself, so by extension, are they.

Why are you asking this though if you don't really care? Are you perhaps more worried about where this is heading than you originally thought? It's ok to want to be cared for. And quite frankly your health care providers should want to help you should you require such help. That's their job.

I hope you have somewhere to turn too should you feel increasingly at risk.

Thanks for asking this because at first I wasn't completely sure. And yet I knew there must be a reason and so I was thinking about it. I guess I want them to know that I am getting worse and that I have been increasing in SH. But I don't want to tell them. I don't want them to ask, but I feel like they need to.
Everyone keeps saying how well I am doing. But I don't feel they have a decent sense of the turmoil that is still very existent on a daily basis.

[ifst5]

It's a very difficult scenario because on the one hand, self harm is an incredibly personal and private act. It reveals a great deal about our emotional resilience and general wellbeing. Sometimes we don't want it revealed to us that even those who are paid to care actually couldn't any less. Sometimes exposing even more vulnerability puts us into a spot where we can't guarantee our own safety or dependency on others for help. Sometimes we don't want to let professionals down even though a lot of the time it's the other way around. The reasons are endless really. But the focus shouldn't be so much on the act but what the act is symptomatic of - if you're finding it harder to cope then that's what they need to know. Leave it to them to ask about what's making you feel this is the case. That then is an adequate time to talk about SH within context. Hope this helps.

[ScarletPimpernel]

I'm asked about my picking and cutting almost every single session. She asks about the cutting to make sure I haven't started again. The picking is something we're trying to figure out atm. But the severity/frequency allows her to gauge my anxiety. Sometimes she asks about my smoking to also guage my anxiety. And she asks about the severity of my sui thoughts to guage my depression.

[Achy Turtle Armor]

My T asks randomly. I'm not telling him $h1+ anymore. I hate him right now. It was me reacting poorly to the phone call with him today that made me decide to cut my leg 33 times. If he asks at my next appointment I want to say, "F U."

[Ad Intra]

She hardly asks, even about suicidal thoughts

[SilentNinjaReader]

Hardly. He prefers to ask me whether I was journaling or not and what that consisted of. He thinks that by writing my feelings out I'll just all of a sudden stop my SI. Yeah okay

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[Jannaku]

I had cuts on my forearm and my son's T noticed them when I was in a joint session with him and her. In hindsight I can see she bated me because she asked me to hand her a piece of paper and then exclaimed "Oh, you've got cuts!". I dismissed them and said "Oh yeah, I've been doing a lot of work lately", which in hindsight was a fairly elusive answer. My son's T and my T talk and I have an appointment to see my T tomorrow. I'm going to have to be honest if she asks. Whether or not I fess up to it on my own is another story. Depends on how courageous I'm feeling. I always freeze up in therapy because I fear judgement and get overwhelmed with shame. I was about to start my own thread about SI when I got sidetracked on this. I'm off to do that now.

Jannaku xxx

[Jannaku]

Well I saw my T today and as hard as it was to tell her about SI, I did. She took it all in her stride and said it was fully understandable and that she wasn't surprised. It will be interesting now to see if she asks about it on a regular basis, although I'm suspecting she won't. I can relax a bit now that I've crossed that bridge. Phew.