[Lexicon78]

I was really worried that I hurt one of my t's feelings the other day. I tried to call him up but he was busy. I felt so guilty and wanted to cut myself. I told a few people this and when I went to my PHP today they made fun of me for thinking that I might've hurt his feelings. This really hurt.

They would've reacted so much more differently if I had cut. Don't they care about my feelings? Apparently not. Right now I'm debating on cutting, just to show them how much it does bother me. I am so angry with them. It's like I'm crap and they're the belittling committee.

Am I too nice? Is the problem that I care about others too much? I don't know anymore.

[Zenobia]

Sorry I didn't get this until today. I hate it when people belittle my concerns. Sometimes I know that I am overemotional over some stuff but it is still my emotions and my concerns and they have value. I need help working through them. Having someone say that they are silly or inconsquential is hurtful to me. Argh!
Carrie

<font color=green>But the implicit and usually unconscious bargain we make with ourselves is that, yes, we want to be healed, we want to be made whole, we're willing to go some distance, but we're not willing to question the fundamental assumptions upon which our way of life has been built, both personally and societally.--Bill Plotkin, Soulcraft