[Lexicon78]

I sent an email to my friend for teasing me yesterday. Well now I feel really guilty about what I wrote. I needed to tell her how I felt, but that doesn't mean it feels good. Sure the urge is there. I think I should be punished for writing some of the things I did. I wasn't nice...I told her I didn't confront her about it because I knew I'd snap at her and I don't want to do that even though she wasn't exactly respectful to me.

It's like a double-edged sword. You're damned if ya do, damned if ya don't. I guess I just need to get this all off my chest. I feel like I'm snowballing out of control. First I want to cut cause I thought I hurt a t's feelings. Then I got teased about that and now want to cut because of the teasing. I want to punish myself for possibly hurting my friend's feelings. Things are just out of control.

[Rapunzel]

Lexi, you are a very sensitive person. There is nothing wrong with caring about people's feelings, but the thing I hope is that you will start to be able to see that you are responsible for your own feelings and not theirs. They can choose to take offense or be hurt, or not. Telling them how you feel is fine, and you don't need to apologize for your feelings. Or punish yourself either.

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[Zenobia]

I was wondering if part of the guilt is actually fear that she may not like you anymore because you said something that might upset you? I feel that way a lot after I tell someone that they hurt me.
Carrie

<font color=green>But the implicit and usually unconscious bargain we make with ourselves is that, yes, we want to be healed, we want to be made whole, we're willing to go some distance, but we're not willing to question the fundamental assumptions upon which our way of life has been built, both personally and societally.--Bill Plotkin, Soulcraft