trigger...break down

sorry...I feel like ive been making so many threads about my issues that I just feel like I'm starting to bother everyone here but I don't know what else to do since this is one of my ways to let things out...

Im having a triggered break down right now...i don't want to get into the details about it right now. I instantly went to hide in the garage so I could break down in private. first thing I could think of was cutting so I started cutting...the first cut is always painful then I become numb afterwards...watching my blood flow out calmed me down a little for some reason...I'm going to walk my dog then go pick up my trazodone prescription. gonna go to my godsisters house afterwards to take my med and have a place to sleep everything away...I can't be here at my family's house right now. I can't deal with it. I will go crazy...I'm just trying to keep my mind from thinking to suicide like it usually does because I think if I do...then something might actually happen this time

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I'm so sorry to read of your struggle, LelouchLamperouge. May you be enfolded within the peace of the infinite...

First of all, post as many thread as you desire, we are here to listen and hopefully help. Just please, get it out of your system and blow-off steam, we know how you feel, friend.

Second of all, try as much as you can to not hurt yourself. Don't stretch that behavior until you can't calm down until you see gore. The struggle you're going through is, I'm pretty sure, since it can't be mentioned in details, very hard and disturbing.

No matter how much of a struggle you are going through, please don't be suicidal. Life is hard, but it's worth living. What is there after suicide? Nobody knows. So, please don't think about throwing yourself into the unknown. Your life is precious, dear friend. Your have a very simple request, which is to live a balanced and happy life, and sleep and wake up with peaceful thoughts. Please, don't make this world worry about being forced to lose one its very special individuals, which is what you are, DEFINITELY!

Yes, please keep posting. I am doing the same thing. I feel like i'm bothering others but i know this is my only option so i keep posting. I do feel a little better. Please keep posting. We matter and we exist!!!