[madmusican]

Gave up trying not to cut tonight
Was stupid to think I could fight it
Sorry for letting you all down

Mad x

Hi Madmusician,
You're going to stumble a few times before getting it right. I'm sorry that you hurt yourself but you can conquer this if and when you really believe in yourself that you can do this.
(((((((Madmusician)))))))))))))

[bipolar_bear]

Relapses happen. I am sorry that it happened but please don't give up. You have not let anyone down and hope you can see that you haven't. Please take care and try and stay safe.

BB

you can never let us down
there are no expectations or pressure here
you are you and we are we
we will be here to support you always
no matter what
we will not reject you
((((((((madm)))))))))

[Christina86]

((((((((madmusician))))))))))

It happens. Get back up and try again. Just keep trying, it will eventually get easier. You haven't let anyone down, because you're trying.

take care of yourself.

[madmusican]

i cant keep doing this, i am a mess

so alone, so scared, so out of control

i want to cry, but no tears come, nothing
so i cry the familar warm, crimson tears again tonight

[Christina86]

((((((((((madmusician)))))))))))))

there has to be someone you can talk to, somewhere where you can go so you're not alone and can't resort to cutting?

[0xwaterx0]

(((((((((((((((((((mad musician)))))))))))))))))))))))
dont give up on quiting. i know you can do it, and if you mess up, dont feel ashamed it is a very hard thing to do. im here if you ever need to talk

[Amalthea]

(((((mad musician))))))

don't give up yet. how long have you been cutting? (harder to break long time habits)

sometimes it helps to just send long rants when you get down. i write mine out. i'm glad that you were able to write down what you were feeling here.

it's a start- you can do this! baby steps.

[muse]

((((((((((((((((((((((((((madmusician)))))))))))))))))))))))))
I know the feeling (as I'm sure we all do) very, very well. Sometimes it feels like everything is building up inside, ready to explode, and cutting is the only way to let it out.

As has been said... nobody's let down. We've all had relapses, all had moments when things just got to be too much. The fact that you're reaching out during those moments means you DO want to stop, you're doing everything you can to make it better, and you want help. For that, I am incredibly proud of you!! (and no, I'm not trying to sound condecending or anything--I mean it!)

Have you tried just throwing away all the things you use to cut? I know that there's always something in the house, but sometimes getting rid of the stuff you're familiar with can help break the pattern.

extra special luck&love,
~muse