[PlanningtoLive]

For awhile, right before my surgery, I had a tough time right after I quit taking all my meds so abruptly. But I worked through it and just went back on to Lexapro.

Things went smoothly at home, then at the hospital, and even for the week I was home. Mostly because I was home where my husband could see me and not accuse me of anything, and my son was happy.

I was content because I didn't have to go to work and deal with people and the stress. I preferred staying indoors and not having to cope with outside issues.

Well, I've been back at work since Monday and had yesterday and today off. I can feel the stress mounting inside of me and sensations of being overwhelmed again. My hands are shaking again, and I couldn't breathe very well today - anxiety, esp. when my husband & I were arguing.

Then our landlord sends a notice that says that the utilities from 3 years ago haven't been paid - the water bill after we first moved in. Excuse me.............3 years ago????????? And now he's threatening to send us a 5 day notice of eviction.

After investigating things at the courthouse and city hall, I discover the landlord is not even the real listed owner of the property......I feel like I am in the middle of a soap opera. The listed owners also got divorced last year, so who has the house? Our landlord always said the HE was the owner of the house and how he had to pay a mortgage. He never paid any taxes on the property - I checked with the Register of Deeds.

Now I am dealing with this and then my husband is having problems getting parts to repair his car from the accident - and his stress is fueling mine - big time.

Then I decide, ok I need to call the Mental Health Hospital like my pdoc wanted me to do and get in to see a psychiatrist. My former T was a psychologist and couldn't prescribe meds...........so I call.

They call me back and say that I can be put on a waiting list and maybe by June (????????) I can be seen. I told them I've been in psych ward twice..........and not on any meds right now. Yup, we'll call you in June, hopefully.

I've had a headache all day, my nerves are pulled so tight they feel like they'll break, and I get to go to work tomorrow when my back hurts like h*ll. Then of course I still have to work on getting the clothes for my son's First Communion, which today I discovered for one day will cost me $72. When I raised objections to spending that much, I had both my husband and son gang up on me. My husband is not even the same religion, but he butted in. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

I'm stressing big time here. I just want to go to sleep and not wake up. Tomorrow is Friday, a very busy day at work, and I'm not up to it. All I can think about is the amount of meds I have in this house and how badly I need to call my former T - but can't. After 2 months, his voice is not as strong in my head anymore to sort of act like my conscience.

I don't know how much longer I can deal with all this coming at me without something to help. I am going to call my pdoc and leave him a message about this waiting list thing. He is on the board of the hospital - may have some pull to get me in sooner, but he's not in the office tomorrow. Which means a whole weekend of stress from work, the practice on Sat. and the actual Communion on Sunday. Then my boss had me scheduled to work Sunday, when I had requested the day off - so then I have to worry about hurrying up after the ceremony and going to work - which isn't fair.

Calgon, take me away.......................

[Rapunzel]

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You had a bit of a respite, and a little peace. Hang onto that feeling and use it to keep moving forward. Let's see if we can think of any options for you, ok?

The stuff with the landlord - is it even your problem who actually owns the house? That's rotten that they are now presenting a bill from three years ago. If it was something you thought you had paid, maybe it's their record-keeping problem. Of if you do need to pay it, I know you'll find a way to manage. You always do. So try not to worry about things that you don't need to. You have enough to deal with just keeping yourself going.

Ask at your church if there is any way you could borrow the clothes for your son's First Communion. I'm sure that they can come up with something there.

Why does your pdoc want you to find another psychiatrist? I thought pdoc meant the same as psychiatrist? Can he help you with meds in the mean time until someone else can get you in? At any rate, talk to him about the trouble you are having - I'm sure he will be able to work something out.

Thanks for letting us know what is going on with you. We're always just a keyboard away any time you need to vent or get some support. I'm sorry that you have so much stress in your life, and I just wish that I could actually do something to help.

Wendy

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[poptardqueen]

*big GIANT hugs*

Just keep row row rowing the boat darling .

<3
Kelly

[Fuzzybear]

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[heatherm]

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Gosh hun what a time you are having. You will get through this I know it.

My son Timmy had his first communion 2 weeks ago....check with the church...if you are having trouble getting his outfit they will be able to help.

You are in my thoughts.


Heather

[SeptemberMorn]

How much Lexapro are you on, Hun? You haven't been on it for very long, either.

If your back is still hurting, I wouldn't go into work. Have you thought of going on Workman's Comp? I don't know if it's an option, though.

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<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>

[PlanningtoLive]

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About the house, yes, because what happens if the "real owners" decide they want the house? Our lease is null and void because it was done with someone who has no legal right to the house. We could be sitting outside after a given amount of time.

Plus, since we obviously haven't been paying the owners rent, who is this guy? I've been doing some internet research and discovered the real owners got divorced last year. Again, who owns the house?? Not our so-called landlord, that's for sure.

I juggled it out so that Alex will have his dress clothes today........I rented them for the day. Not cheap, which is hurting but I am tired of people up at school thinking he is a charity case. He will look really nice.

Pdoc=primary doc? That's what I thought. Anyway, my pdoc is not really that knowledgeable about meds for the this kind of thing, and wanted me to actually see a psychiatrist who is. Those 9 pills a day bothered him (and me).........lol.

I did call and left a message with his nurse. She's supposed to call me Monday.

Yesterday I was coughing up blood and there is a swelling on the left side of my stomach area that hurts like crazy now. I think for sure my surgery didn't help because since yesterday I have hardly been able to move without massive amounts of painkillers.

My boss said I might have a hernia..........[sigh]. I still can't find that darn Calgon.

Mary Alice

[PlanningtoLive]

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There's my partner.........xoxoxo

It's tipping a little, but I'm still next to you.

Mary Alice

[PlanningtoLive]

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Alex is not really enthused........lol. Was Timmy?

We got the suit, and hopefully it will go well.

Ya get tired of always making through it though, don't you? Only so many rabbits in my hat, and they aren't mutiplying either.......lol.

xoxoxoxo

[PlanningtoLive]

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Next time you're not feeling the best, I'm going to hide out with you, okay?

xoxoxo thanks.

[guardian2all]

Do you have a lease? In my state (Ohio) you cannot pass on the water bill to a tenant unless it's in the lease and even in some cases not even then. Sounds like someone is tryng to shake you down for some extra cash. Chances are the landlord never paid the water bill and now they are trying to find the money to pay it and are trying to shake you down for it. That certainly doesn't help with your stress now does it? I know it's hard, but I think you are learning to cope and handle things. Someday this stuff won't bother you, but for now, you are workng on it. You are smart to ask for help and to contact your doctor. Go back tothe hospital if you need to, but don't let it become the place you escape to just to avoid the problems of every day life. :-)

[PlanningtoLive]

Hi guardian, welcome to the boards here.

Yes, we have a lease. Someone other than my so-called landlord paid the taxes on the house since 2001. We sent in the rent checks which were cashed and I had also sent him a letter.

I don't need to deal with a 5 day notice and the court proceedings right now. I wish I could see my T or talk to someone..............but right now there is no one.

Thanks for your response.

[LadyDragus]

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oh my mary alice.. just when I leave the board for a few days your hell gets even worse.. I wish I could hold you, and take away your pain.. was not yoru sugery supposed to make it somewhat better???? I am so sorry it has not helped.. I truly am..
Remeber I love you and so do others on here..

honey.. I am ever so sorry..

this lease things sounds really fishy if you ask me..
and I would do some more calling around and try to find out who the real owners of the house are and ask why they are not recieving your rent checks.. but I know you have a lot on your plate..

Congrats on your sonc first commioun I can remeber my frist coummion. I do recall having to wear a fancy outfit for it but I went to a very small church, in my home town..
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