[madmusican]

I really want the hurt, the pain, the release

i want to cut and i dont want to stop

, just want eveyrthing to stop and to have some peace

i am so sorry

[Direction]

I'm sorry you are feeling this way and that I missed you by a half hour...I caught a word...that suggest you should be calling your pdoc or T is in order and that if you can't reach them getting the ER is a good idea...I know you don't just throw that word around...

[Lothlorien]

Hi musician,

Hang in there, we're here for you. I agree you should call your doc or T or a crisis line.

You can get through this, we all want you to be safe.

*hugs musician*

[madmusican]

went to my mum's for a bit, have phoned samaritains and they were useless

have cut but want more, have told hub to hide all the pills

sorry

[Direction]

Good step going to your mum's and taking precautions on the meds...

[Rapunzel]

Good thinking going to your mum's and letting your husband know that you needed his help. I'm sorry the samaritans didn't help you more. What I have read about them sounded impressive, but I have no personal experience. What did they tell you? Do you have other options for getting crisis support?

Would you like to talk about what has you hurting this much right now? I feel for you. What can we do to help you get through this?

[madmusican]

have emergency docs appt in half an hour, have cut bad today need help, cant do it anymore, sorry

[Lothlorien]

(((((musician))))) I will say a prayer for you.

[Irine]

i think you should find yourself a real theraphist.
not just on the phonethe sooner the better,. guess you know it anyway .

[madmusican]

i have a counsellor and a community psychiatric nurse

[Fuzzybear]

I feel for you ((((((((((((((((( musician )))))))))))))))))

[Irine]

so they are not that much of help?

[madmusican]

i really really want to cut again

something my mother said today has really upset and angered me and I just want to cut now

I began singing a song by an artist who it has just been reported in the paper that she self harms. My mum said, "oh she will be dead soon" and when i asked why, she said "because she is into all that silly self harm and stuff like that". I just wanted to lift up my sleeve and say "Silly self harm.....you mean like this????"

I was so close to telling my mum that I self harm the other day, but I am so glad I didnt. The only person in my family who knows is my husband, and it is stayng at that.

i really wish i didnt want to cut so badly

[Rio_]

Ouch! I'm sorry your mum doesn't understand. (((madmusician))) Don't give up, though.

[Irine]

every situations is different from the other, you mom does`t know everyhting.

i understand how it may feel when you are i such a sensitive case, but please try to forget what your mom said. it doens`t have much truth in it. there are many people who self injure but do it under control, and there are otheres who are out fo control and do more dangerous things.

your situaitons depends on YOU and only on YOU.
and it`s great you haven`t cut untill now. hold on.
you are doing great. even if you feel ******. keep going and you will feel better and the desire to cut yourself will gradually fade away, with God`s help.

(((((mm)))))

i hear you and am here. i understand and will sit beside you to support you and let you know you are not alone. keep reaching out. we all care vey much.

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