Kind of self harm????

Not sure if this belongs here. Let me explain. I love my son though sometimes he says really mean things to me and it hurts real bad he is 9. I tell my husband but he just excuses his behavior . So my son just keeps doing it. It isn't like I can just get up and leave. If my husband is working. I can't leave him here alone and he only does it when we are together, never when his father is around and he denies it when his father asks him about it. I kind of feel like my husband thinks I am a liar. I am depressed and have a lot on my plate and when he does this to the point I break down and cry, I end up hurting myself with meds. Not to die but enough to have a few days in the hospital. This has been happening since October of 2015 but it is getting worse. To the point where I have ended up in ICU once with respiratory failure and once for rhabdomyolosis (spelling) never do they suspect too many drugs in my system. I know this is dangerous but I can't stop. And I don't think it will until my son learns to keep his mouth shut. Sorry to be blunt like that but true.

(((((hugs))))))

are you getting any help with this- do you see someone?

do you have any other things you can try when you start feeling like that (distraction methods)

i always suggest reading the thread at the top of this forum, things to do in sted of harming yourself.

take care

I haven't told anyone yet but this forum. I try and just do something to distract myself but so many thoughts go through my head especially how can a little boy be so cruel. I hate to say that but that's how I see it. I do see a therapist but I'm not ready to tell her any of this yet. Not sure I feel comfortable telling her.

do you have anyone to help with your son? sounds like he can be a bit of a handful..