[kimboboo]

I've been feeling really good for the past three weeks. It is the longest I have ever been happy in my life. Wednesday afternoon I started having this intense urge to cut, but didn't really feel bad. I talked to my therapist and she seems to feel it is because I've never been happy and it is a new and scary emotion for me. She thinks I want to cut because I'm so happy! After our session last night I may just agree with her.
This is the discouraging part, though. I just got off the phone with her and she suggested I may think about cutting every day for the rest of my life. It won't always be intense and may be fleeting, but it may be there forever. I'm not sure I can deal with that. It's really bothering me. I don't want to think about it every day. I guess my scars may make it impossible not to. I could use some encouragement and support. Thanks.

[Rapunzel]

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It is so great that you are feeling happy!!! It seems that maybe there is some part of you trying to tell you that you can't deal with being happy and need to go back to the way things were. Try not to listen to that voice, ok? You deserve so much happiness!

On thinking about cutting for the rest of your life, sure, that's possible. I can't imagine not thinking of it. But worrying about it isn't going to help. You can use thought stopping or replace those thoughts with something else (have a song in mind or something to use to change gears when you need to). So, if you can, concentrate on experiencing feeling happy. That's what really matters, right?

<font color=orange>"Never forget: 2 + 2 = 5 for extremely large values of 2."</font color=orange>

[(JD)]

<Agreeing with Rap .

Any kind of stress... even stress that comes from "good"... can be a trigger to make things go back the way they were, or to try and cope with those feelings.

Wishin you strength to soothe your "inner parts" that are upset.

<font color=blue> meditation is a true way to connect to the Source </font color=blue>