What are the reasons why you cut or self injure?

I cut for a number of reasons. I am very depressed because of our situation especially with my mom's health. I also cut because of my guilt. I am guilty of many disasters and death and destruction throughout the world being responsible for 350,000 deaths. It is because I have psychic dreams about disasters that are about to take place such as the tsunami that killed 230,000 people. I had at least 10 dreams related to it before it happened! So, what are your reasons why you cut or self injure?

well i cutt for a few reasons.... one is to realse anger im feeling at the time... when im angry i usually throw things and say mean things.. and so instead of doing that i cut sometimes.... another reason i know this isnt right but its to hurt those around me or to get back at them... if me and my b/f r fighting ill go cut cause i know it hurts him.... .. plus im angry and dont care what i do when im angry.....

to feel

<font color="#000088">When I was cutting, it was to release the pain I felt inside. Emotional pain.
But I don't think you should feel guilty about these deaths because of your dreams, that Tsunami would've still happened no matter how many times you dreamed about it. And if you really think about it, trying to warn them about it ahead of time, and saying that your proof came from dreams,or psychic visions of some sort. Chances of them believing that, are slim to none. So you really aren't responsible for those deaths, and I hope that someday you will come to realize that! That is not your fault, you shouldn't be feeling guilty for that!
I'm sorry that you have been carrying around all that guilt for so long,when in reality,it is NOT your fault!</font>

I am lucky in that I dont really self injure like too much or badly or whatever.... I know I get the urge when I'm having a hard time or I'm stressed like mad about something or depressed, agitated, etc. I guess mostly when emotions are really intense.

Because its easier to feel pain on the outside instead of inside.
Because I feel like Im gonna blow up,intense anxiety...and after.....ahhh so calm.

Ok let's see. The last time I cut was in January and that was because of how absolutely horrible and retched I was feeling and I remembered that when I was cutting on a regular basis (like at least once a day.... a least) years and years ago, that no matter how horrible I was feeling, it made it better. I wanted it to be better again. I want it to be better again now but I can't start cutting again... it's too addictive. It just added to my anxiety anyways. I was soooo worried about someone finding out about it again. I'm 25 and a mother now. I can't be cutting... Anyways... I just remember that thinking about it made me feel better. Jus knowing that I had that, that no one else knew about or at least didn't tell me that they knew about. It's what kept me on course. I guess it released my anger. I still do not share stuff like this well. I'm trying here. It screamed for me that I was hurting and I didn't have to say a word. I wanted someone to make me feel better but I couldn't tell them. So since I couldn't tell them I tried to do it myself. The pain on the outside did not even come close to the pain inside. It sorta combated it a little.

OK sorry for rambling... I hope that makes sense.

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skittles said:
.... another reason i know this isnt right but its to hurt those around me or to get back at them...

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Skittles, I've done that. It's like a big FU to to whoever you can't get back at other wise even if they don't know you're doing it or did it.

I am happy to report I am not cutting. It has been months since an "incident." When I did cut it was because I felt overwhelmed by emotions. I have been working hard in therapy and I think that is helping me stay cut free. I hope I stay cut free--I don't want to go back to that pain (emotional).

to release the emotions I don't know I have

Just started - punish myself........

It used to be for the 'release'...when the anxiety and emotions that I couldn't put into words and didn't understand became too much. It is still about that a bit, but most of the time now it is to punish myself. It is also to feel physical pain, to put a 'physical' feeling to the 'emotional' feelings which are inside.

Because what I'm feeling on the inside is unbearable. Pain took my mind off of it. Most of the time there was no pain. It is very addicting. I am proud to say that I havn't done any kind of self injury for a couple of months, not exactly sure of the date, but I'm surviving without harming myself. Good question!

I cut for years, sometimes to deep and to much, I stopped cutting, and went 10 years without self injuring myself, now I am back to cutting. All this work in therapy stirred up so many feelings, I cut to feel real pain, the pain inside is so unbearable at times that I cannot stand it. When I cut I can see the blood and feel the pain and no why!!!! It releases the emotional pain for alittle bit!!!

I SI simply because I have too much pain and rage inside of me to shout it out or cry it out, so I use other ways (like SI) to get it out.

it feels good. im not going to lie

Am I allowed to say I miss it? I would like to SI still, but I don't have the intensity of emotional pain or numbness to be able to, which is a very good, in fact excellent, thing of course.

Reasons - Such a relief to see the blood flowing!!! So I can nurture myself afterwards. To feel physical pain and distract from emotional pain. To feel physical pain instead of emotional nothingness.

This is the first time I've admitted to self harm. I don't cut, i scratch. when I feel overwhelmed, stressed, depressed, sometimes to feel, when I'm scared, I have to admit I've also done it get attention, I'm not proud of it but I need to be honest with myself. The last time I scratched way yesterday.

Well, I cut because..

-im majorly depressed
-to make myself actually snap into reality for a few seconds and actually feel like a real person.
-to un-numb myeslf
-to punish myself for screwing everything up
-to take my mind temporarily off of the mental pain, even if its just for a split second.
-because I cant express my feelings or the agony that i feel in any other way.

*it feels good
*it makes me giddy afterwards

to relass the bane some times. to let me know i am alive others. i have no family lift so one i get to thinking about them i cut to deaden the emotions.other times it is like i am in a Haze floating in some ones Else's body so i fell need to see the blood to know that i am still alive.
as above so may it be below.
catch the lighting chain the wind

I used to have a list of reasons why in my head, but at this point right now, I don't even know why I do it anymore.

I don't feel as much of a need anymore, but when I did, it was to deal with whatever I was feeling at the time. Anxiety and loneliness were a couple of these. Now I only do it when I feel overwhelmed and I just need to.

I haven't hurt myself in a long time but it used to be to punish myself... like if you can't beat 'em, join 'em.

It depends on the episode...because there's a lot of reasons I do it:

~ When I'm numb and just want to feel.
~ When I just don't know how to express my emotions.
~ When I'm angry with myself; to abuse myself.
~ When I'm feeling lonely and depressed.
~ Just because it feels good; it's very addictive...I like the feeling of blood.