i am one sad individual/....

humm i reckon it is sad to say that the internet is the only thing in my life that i have, that i am still interested in. and that is purely coz i dont want others i know thru it to hurt. i want to hurt, its pathetic, im sitting here on my own, onmy bed, with a pair of scissors in my hand, i use scissors coz they make less of a wound, and im tying to be goodish, sorta. to be honest i want to just tear my arm open big time. it sucks. scissors are no substitute no matter how sharp they are...feck it... where are they... *music to signify battle going on in head* we have lost signal,,, please try again later... my gad this is not healthy. brb gonna get some finish it grrrrrr! ehhhh

Oh good, you're online in the support room. I wasn't really sure what to say to help. You can have my first hug though.

(((((((Selfy))))))

Hope it helps a bit.

(((((((((((((selfy))))))))))))))

ty for the hugs guys that was one tough night, its nice to be supported. ty
take care all
self

mehh i was in the shower this morning with all of yknow, and it hurt much more than its ever hurt before, idk. something has happened to me,,, i feel like cr*p. i mean real cr*p not the normal. im so disgusted at myself, why did this start? i hate it. i dont want it anymore. its too much. it wasnt as if i did it loads. i only did a little, but i think i did it harder and deeper. i reckon i will have about five or six really bad scars. great. im sorry to ziggy and whoever else was there, i knowthey tried their best. i need to cry but the only tears that come are red. i feel horrible. the struggle with my suicidal ideations is coming back too... not againnnn i dont want this, why did i get this? what did i do?
im sorry forget i ever wrote this
take care
self

((((((((((((Selfy)))))))))))))

Do take care of yourself. If they need to be taken care of medically, please make sure they don't get infected. I'm sorry about the suicidal ideation. It's not fun to deal with ... I'm going through the same thing too. You didn't do anything to deserve this.

Try to take care of yourself ((((((((Selfy))))))))))))

((((((((((Selfy))))))))

Try to stay safe and well. Sending gentle caring hugs if thats ok!!

Dee

(((SELFY))). I am sorry that you are suffering at this time SELFY. Is there a hotline in your area to call if you need someone to talk to in person. I am aware that you are dealing with a lot of emotional issues at this time. the hotline number for your area I think is 08457-90-90-90. Please seek medical attention if you need it. Take cares. soidhonia

ty guys , i an just going to get some sleep..... ahh the only thing i dont have a prob with...
take care all
self

(((((selfy)))))
I am so sorry you are not doing well at this time. There are a lot of wonderful supportive people here to lean on. Please be safe and feel free to ask for help. Hope you start feeling better soon.

<font color="#000088">I'm sorry your having such a horrible time right now. I know how it feels though, cause I've been there many times before. But the cutting won't make it go away. It'll just add physical pain to the emotional pain, and double up what your going through. I think you did right by posting here to get support, and there are many of us here that do understand. I wish I could take your pain away, and make you feel better, but I can give you my support, and hope that you'll take it as an act of kindness, and let it lift you up a little. And in time, let all the support continue to lift you more and more,until you are no longer feeling so down.
You're in my thoughts, I really do hope that you get feeling better soon!((((((((((Selfy))))))))))
All my best wishes! </font>

(((selfy)))

I haven't spoken to you in ages but I want you to know I care about you and I want you to take care of yourself.

You have to take care of yourself because I care and I can't take anymore sad. You are such a caring person, always helping others. We need you to be whole...so keep trying, I know you can do it.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo