[biggie]

i just don't know what to do, things are so down and depressed that the idea of cutting seems to be coming back, just the thought of bl**d coming out, seems to be something i really miss seeing. i haven't cut in over 4 years and now with all this stuff going on with me, i'm finding myself getting closer and closer to cutting again
i am running out of postitive ideas to try, but seems negative ones seem to be taking over.
could use some feedback.

[Psyclox]

I get those urges from time to time, it sucks I know but all u have to do is keep yourself busy, hide all sharp objects and stay online, park here on Psych central go to chat if necassary. Stay safe.

[biggie]

it's really hard to talk about me feeling like this, i'm surpose to be a strong person, but I AM NOT. just pretend to be, I wish i could stay here, with people that knows what it feels like what i am feeling but it's not possible right now, i would like to come back later tonight and maybe talk in chat if i'm allowed to, since i am a new member or not, i know on some forums you have to be there for a month or so before allowed in chats. thanks again for the responses.

[Psyclox]

U r a strong person and u r always welcome in chat whether u r new or not, just remeber if u wherent a strong person u would never have made it to 4 years.

[Psyclox]

Oh and 1 more thing I am here and so r many other people, we all know what it feels like, and there is nothing with talking about your feelings.

[_Hope_]

do something distracting
I like to talk or chat with a friend until the feeling passes or i am too tired to do anything but sleep.

i try to be a good listener if you want to chat

Linda

[Christina86]

Hey ((((((((((((biggie))))))))))))))

sorry I missed you when you were online. Congratulations on four years! That's good!

Psyclox gave some good suggestions and you are always welcome in Chat. There are always people you can talk to... sometimes people join PC just to talk in Chat!

You don't have to be strong, and you don't have to hide how you're really feeling here. We know what you're going through, sometimes life just gets to be too much and BAM the urges come back and it seems impossible to get over them...

But you know what? I know you can do this, because you've come this far. Reach out here, post some more if it helps, go into Chat and talk, whatever it takes. Actually in the main index for this forum there's a pinned topic about stuff you can do instead of harming yourself. It's a good list, you just have to find what works out best for you.

Do you have anyone you can talk to IRL?

Try to take care of yourself, and welcome to PC.

[ickydog2006]

I'm sorry things are going badly right now but hang in there. It is so hard to quit once you've started again.

Try to take care
((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))

[Irine]

i agree with Psyclox
feelign depressed and stuff doesn`t mean are not a strong person. The real question is how you DEAL with it.
i personally believe that in order to move on we have first to except where we are. except ourselves liek we are right now. iof we don`t od so we are stuck...

i bet you don`t want all this stuff you have beein overcoming for 4 years to come back....you know it will make htings worse....keep being strng as you have been, keep holding on! later you will feel good about yourslef! and will say
" i acted like a strong person!"

[biggie]

thanks everyone and yes those was some good ideas. i have been to some chats, and it was really nice in there. things has eased up some because on medication for pain, and sort of helps keep me numb for a while,
I KNOW THAT ITS NOT THE ANSWER, but do think that it is helping some.

Thanks again