[SweetCrusader]

i woke up crying from a really sad, sad dream. i'm having a really hard time lately. i feel like everything in my life sucks right now, and i feel like i have nowhere to go to feel safe except therapy. and now i'm moving like 4 hours away from my therapist. how will i deal with that?

i feel so alone, and so sad. my best friend, who i also had feelings for, got engaged and i seem to be disappearing from his life. i can't pay my medical bills. i'm moving to go to school and my rent will be paid with a loan. i don't even have a job up there yet, and i'm leaving a really good job to do this. and i have no savings. i don't know if moving is really the best thing for me right now, but i have to in order to finish my degree. i keep having nightmares because in therapy, i'm dealing with abuse and neglect early on in my life and that's really tough- as many of you know. i am in depression. maybe the worst depression i have ever been in. and i am constantly fighting the urge to hurt myself. the last time i gave in was only about a week and a half ago. but i may end up giving in today. i just hurt so much

i feel so alone.

-comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable-
<div class="foot">(Edited by SweetCrusader on 07/31/04 12:01 PM.)</div>

[Rapunzel]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Angela}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

I'm sorry you are feeling badly again. Wish I could do more to help you, but you can call me any time if you like, or we could chat if you want to.

Wendy

<font color=orange>"If a light beckons to you, follow it. If it leads you into the quagmire, you'll probably find your way out of it again; but if you don't follow it, you'll be plagued for the rest of your life by the thought that perhaps it was your star." Friedrich Hebbet</font color=orange>

[(JD)]

((((sweet))) hugs if you can handle them I don't SI but I do understand. Sorry you are feeling alone. Glad you have this place to come to... keep posting post a book if you have to... (we can always have a mod delete it if it get's too long ..)

try to distract yourself... another day... do your best, ok?

<font color=blue> meditation is a true way to connect to the Source </font color=blue>

[SweetCrusader]

thanks sky, rap, and ozzie.

i have a really hard time posting. i don't know how to talk about it. that's why i don't post my own stuff all that often.

i don't know what to say that would give me any kind of cathartic release. i just hurt.

-comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable-

[Fuzzybear]

I usually have a hard time posting my stuff too. I am sorry you're feeling so bad (((((((((((((((SweetCrusader)))))))))))))))

[(JD)]

PS I like your subscript... disturb the comfortable... heheheh

<font color=blue> meditation is a true way to connect to the Source </font color=blue>

[SweetCrusader]

thanks

and thanks for the hugs!!! i needed them

-comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable-
<div class="foot">(Edited by SweetCrusader on 07/31/04 09:39 PM.)</div>

[SweetCrusader]

thanks fuzzy. you are such a sweet bear

(((((((((((hugs)))))))))))

Angela (SC)

-comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable-