I cant stand this anymore

I just got a job.. yay yay... And i like it... But this summer all my mom complained about was me not having a job. Now she is saying that i cant hold a job... I have 20 bucks and i was going to spend it on food cause i cant work without energy.. our house is full of crap that i cant have.. rice, popcorn i cant digest that, i get intestinal cramps.. I cant handle her constant remarks... quote" i dont even know if u can even keep a job" "Im not giving u money for gas" "if u cant eat whats in here then STARVE" I sliped up today.. Who cares if i slip up anyway. Im sorry about this... Sorry that im a failer.
Sorry for conserning everyone else

<font color=purple> I shall call him squishy and he shall be mine and he shall be my squishy </font color=purple>
<font color=yellow> BlackDragon </font color=yellow>

hey, that's what we're here for- to be concerned about you! and to support you and be your friends! i'm sorry that you had a slip-up, but more importantly, i'm sorry you were feeling badly. ((((hugs)))) take care of you!!!

Angela

-comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable-

You know what I see? That you are the strong person in this situation. You are the person striving to better herself. Your mother, on the other hand, sounds like she could use some counselling for herself. You, my dear, and heading in the right direction. Good for you!!!! I'm so proud that you applied for and were accepted for the job!!! Now, go eat some food that YOU like. You've earned it, honey!

Hugs,
Sandy

i just want my mom to support me.. not verbally bash me

<font color=purple> I shall call him squishy and he shall be mine and he shall be my squishy </font color=purple>
<font color=yellow> BlackDragon </font color=yellow>

i cant, not until im accepted as a reall person not a freaken dog

<font color=purple> I shall call him squishy and he shall be mine and he shall be my squishy </font color=purple>
<font color=yellow> BlackDragon </font color=yellow>

((((((((((((blackdragon)))))))))))))))))

i'm so, so sorry that you're having to deal with this. i wish i knew magic words that would make your mom straighten up and fly right!

you must be in a lot of pain today.

-comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable-

Your summer sounds remarkably like the summer I was 19. I was depressed and moved back home for a few months and felt like my mom was constantly picking on me. My irritable bowel syndrome was flaring up and I had to be picky about what I ate. Mom accused me of getting stomachaches to get out of doing things I didn't want to do. (Of course, I'd much rather be doubled over in pain than running errands, or walking the dog, or seeing my friends...)

I ended up getting a job in a hardware store that was slowly going out of business...vendors wouldn't ship to us because the bills weren't getting paid, so we didn't have anything that was advertised in the newspapers. Customers constantly yelled at me (like I had anything to do with it).

It got better. It will for you too. You'll do fine at work--your employer wouldn't have hired you unless they thought you could perform.

Take care of yourself and your tummy first...if you have any energy left over then you can deal with your mom. : )

Take care,
apislily

thanks everybody.. im still ticked off at my mom. my shift went well. And my ankle is sore from the cuts.. and i was doing so well till this argument ccame up.
thanks

<font color=purple> I shall call him squishy and he shall be mine and he shall be my squishy </font color=purple>
<font color=yellow> BlackDragon </font color=yellow>

I am so happy for you that you got a job you like. that is awesome! As for your mom, maybe she is afraid of losing you. I mean, now you have a job which may lead to you supporting yourself and not needing her anymore. Where does that leave her emotionally? Lost and bewildered and of no value anymore. Of course we all know that mothers don't lose their value when their children move on but sometimes moms don't think to clearly. This is by no way clearing her of the horrible way she is treating you but may give some insight to make it easier to deal with her. I wonder if some therapy would be in order so she wouldn't need to sabotage you to make herself feel safe in her role.

Also, you are not a failure because you had a slip up. Just make sure you have properly cared for the injury and try to learn from the mistake. Go buy yourself that good food you were thinking of getting and take the best care of yourself that you can. We are rooting for you!
Carrie

<font color=blue>If you have two dollars, spend one on bread and the other on flowers. The bread will feed your body and the flowers will feed your soul."--Arabic Saying