I eventually admit it

Well it's took a long time to get to this point but I am eventually admitting that I self-harm. usually when i've been in a situation that I found difficult or couldn't cope with I do it as a release but mainly when I **** up and make a ***** of things I do it to punish myself. Please help

Yeah, it is difficult to admit to yourself that you SI, and it shows you have courage to post about it here. There are all sorts of distraction techniques posted around designed to help you reduce or replace SI - but basically you have to want to stop yourself. I dont know how long you have been doing it for, but it becomes harder to stop the longer you do it. I began last winter and had a few relapses over the course of last summer, but i have started it up again. I think of SI all day long... and i dont consider myself addicted or anything. it is worth quitting as soon as you can.

Remember, there is a reason why you turn to a coping method like SI. Quitting SI isn't the main issue. You have to address the deeper feelings that the need to hurt yourself stems from, and you have to learn other ways to cope. I think it takes a lot of support in order to be able to do that, and almost always that's going to mean therapy. Recognizing what you are doing is a good place to start. It's a step in the right direction on your journey to being whole. I wish that I knew something I could tell you that would be some key to healing, and the answer that you are looking for, but if I had that, I probably wouldn't still be here. It's hard work, but your answers are out there to be found.

Rapunzel said it well. SI is the symptom of a deeper problem that needs to be looked at and healed from. For instance, why did you pick the screen name that you picked? Why do you feel that you deserve such a name? Because you self injure? Because you make mistakes in other ways?

You ended your post with "Help Me." The best way I can think of to help you is give you a safe hug if you want it {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Sweet New Friend who is not so stupid}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} and to welcome you to our humble home. We are all are going through the same struggle. Each of us is in a different stage on different paths of healing. Beginning to talk about it is the first step. You are in my thoughts,
Carrie