I didn't even cut...

Please keep us up to date!

so so glad this went ok! I agree, it sounds like he's really reaching out, really trying to help you.

I don't know what it means, except that he doesn't want you to SI. None of us want that, so it's a common interest at least

I was very scared, early when I met my T she said if I si'ed she would have to send me somewhere. One day I slipped a little, and told her next week, but she was ok with it, since before I had been almost every day x.x and then, it was just the one slip up.
I'm sure he'll work with you, you both wantthe same thing: for you to get better

That is great to hear that you feel connected to him and that he is helping. I know it has been a rough time for you but I hope you acknowledge yourself for following this through. It sounds like you have a therapist that wants to help and will do whatever it takes.

Please keep posting and let us know what is going on.

I think he is reaching out to me. He doesn't want to force me to do anything.

I just like to be clear on where I stand.

And I hate it when people say stuff and don't follow through. I would rather people not promise or offer stuff they can't back up.

And I like for people to be consistent.

I guess I am pretty shaken when they aren't. I guess I need to remember that no one is perfect.
I tend to remember only that I am not perfect and take it personally when everyone else isn't superhuman.
I guess I am just too dependent on others.
I need to buck up and learn to take care of myself, I guess.

Actually maybe part of it is that you need to learn to take help from others, to trust them enough to let them help you.
Life isn't easy, but it's easier when you're not alone.

I had T today.

It went ok.

Got clear on some things.

I know I won't be able to explain it right but, I’ll try.

He said that he told me his "official" boundaries on cutting, but that within those boundaries is a clause that says he reserves the right to take things on a case by case basis.

He said he just wanted me to know how he feels about cutting and his personal boundaries. But that he would never just kick me to the curb for cutting. He said we would talk about it, why I did it and make a plan to not do it again. But, if it was getting out of hand, he would need to find more help for me.

And he pretty much re-stated that he was there to help me, he believed in me, cared about me, wasn't about to ever give up on me, and had hope I could get better.

So, I feel he clarified well and am satisfied.

Thanks you all, for your support through this. I really appreciate having a place to get stuff out of my head.

thanks for sharing with us B, i know i need this place to find understanding too

Whew, I like his explanation!

thats really great - Im glad things worked out for you