any help would be great....EXTREMELY TRIGGERING

I have had such a HORRIBLE month in general. My b/f and I broke up. He gave me a knife for V Day and that has been soooo triggering. Plus tonight my BESTESt friend ever tells me we have to talk about our friendship. I am frustrating her and she is very annoyed. She knows I cut and supports my urges since I am trying to quit. But she said she thinks sometimes I can control the urges, but I say I can't. i explained that screwups happen when trying to stop but she is so upset. oh m gosh i just can't handle anything else in my life right now. I have been cutting on my arm with a shard of jagged glass 2nite. Earlier I tried burning at school (paperclip & lighter). I dont know what to do. I put glass in my purse, i have a feeling i will be taking many bathroom breaks 2morrow. please any advice????

(((((((((((((((((((((HALLIEBETH87))))))))))))))))))))))))) the advice i can give is take a very deep breath, and try distracting yourself, examples: read a book, go to the movies, listen to music, run, jogg, walk, do jumping jacks.... Im not garenteeing these will work cause they dont work on everyone but try... Your in my thoughts

All of those suggestions from Black Dragon are good. Exercise, and doing something to distract yourself. But if you have glass in your purse, that tells me that you are planning on using it. Can you take the glass out of your purse and get rid of it? And how about tell an adult you can trust how you are feeling?

(((((((((hugs)))))))))) I'm sorry that you are having a bad month. February is always my worst month, I think. After that, the days start getting longer, and it starts looking like Spring, and I do better from that point. Maybe it will work that way for you too.

i trust no one i live with.

I already gave you my advice. You neither thanked me or folllowed up.

How about someone at school then? Like a counselor?

i am sorry Lmo. last night was not so great. i do appreciate your help though. thank u. thank u 2 rap.

hallie, i'd suggest taking the glass out of your purse. It's easier (for me) to rid myself of the cutting instruments than it is to fight the urge when the razor's in my hand. Just a thought.

Ryan

thank u everyone for help. LMo i hope u accept my apology and realize that i meant no harm. after my last post i went to my room and lay down-i fell asleep and didnt post again til this morning.

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I reccomend getting rid of the glass, and then asking your friend (don't do it in a confrontational way, though) to understand how hard it is to quit si. Maybe you could even find a book or a webresource that specifically addresses how hard it is to quit. Then maybe she could understand a little better where you are coming from.

If she is not very open to talking, you could try writing a letter. Tell her how much you appreciate her support and how good to you she is, and then tell her that you don't want to hurt her by what you are doing, but it also isn't something that you can stop overnight. You need to gain the skills to be able to cope in healthier ways, and that takes some work. Maybe if she understands how dependent on cutting you feel right now, then she can wait out the storm with you.

Best of luck to you,
Angela

No problem Halliebeth -- have you called the place I gave you the information for? That's my best advice -- go get help. It would be much more difficult for you to stop this behavior on your own than with someone who can help you in person, who has had training in stuff like this.

no I didn't but I did however tell my school guidance counselor I needed help. She got the therapist who comesd to school to come today. She talked to me for almost 2 hours. She contacted my old pDoc and requested him to up my dosageon zoloft and she made an appointment at a new PDoc for me. I am also supposed to call the Crisis Line tonight and check in with them. I am calling them rather than them calling me b/c my grandma would TOTALLY overreact. She is coming back tomorrow to check on me. She had me copying like 20 pages from a book she has on depression. I have to do those sheets tonight. She helped me arrange it so I will stay the weekend with my aunt (stay busy and talk to her about it). She kept asking me stuff about suicide and I told her I haven't thought about it. She also asked if I htought I needed to talk to a crisis therapist or go to a hospital. I said no. all for now. be back later.

Excellent progress, HB -- keep it up. I'm proud of you.

sounds like you are doing well. good luck.

ryan

thanks

Good job, Halliebeth. I'm glad that you are getting help.

thanks (((((((((((((everyone)))))))))))))