[ickydog2006]

YesterdayI had a panic attack during one of my classes. I hid in the bathroom and I just wanted the pain to go away. The only thing that was semi sharp was a staple so I cut my arm with it. The pain felt so good. Everytime it gets numb I've been pressing with my nail deeper. I talked to one of my friends and he got frustrated me and telling me I need help and just going on about how wrong I was to do this. I already know this. I'm trying to get help but it is so hard. I founf a safety pin today and have been hoarding everysharp object I find. I put them in my pocket and rub them when I feel stressed knowing that their there. I know it is putting a temptation there but I feel I need it. I don't know what to do. It's so hard hiding the cut from everyone so instead of making a new one I just end up making this one deeper and deeper. Someone please help!?!?!

[HALLIEBETH87]

r u ok sweetie??? i have definitely been there. i know how u r feeling and i hope these feelings won't cause u to cut even more. please take care. wait it out i am sure everything will be fine. try explaining it to your friend..it is hard for non-cutters to understand. plus today is self-injury awareness day. take advantage of today by using online resources to help your friend understand you better. please be careful. hugs and double hugs

[SpazKatt]

I know how when you dissapoint someone you feel like you want to cut more. Please be careful as things you "Find" may harbor more bacteria, make sure to clean your wounds so they will no get infected. *HUGS*

[ickydog2006]

"r u ok sweetie??? i have definitely been there. i know how u r feeling and i hope these feelings won't cause u to cut even more."
Is it considered cutting more if I keep digging into it. I just feel like I'm here and not watching myself when I feel the pain. Do you know what I mean. I feel so on edge today like I could panic at any moment. I took my meds for the last couple of days, but part of me is still paranoid that people will trigger me or that they'll find out and avoid me. Because of aawareness day I decided to open up to one of my friends. It was nice to see his concern but yet being okay wiith it and now I don't have to deal with questions cause I know he'll see it sooner or later. (this is a different friend). I feel like I need the pain just to feel alive. I wish I could go home and sleep but I have a brain bowl competition and we are leaving at lunch. Why can't I just feel okay and not bound to anything?

[Rapunzel]

Interference with wound healing is still considered SI. I'm sorry that you are having a hard time. Hang in there, and good luck in the brain bowl competition! That's quite an achievement to be involved with things like that. Could you try to base more of your self-concept on your achievements and talents?