This is really weird...input?

Um, I can't believe I'm posting this.

It's like I was just reminded of this after so long. Ever since I was a little girl I've felt pleasure from wearing diapers and acting like a baby in that way. I don't want to BE a baby, but it's sort of erotic to me to take part in the diaper-lover fetish or whatever it is. I feel like such a freak because of this Can you imagine what people like my peers and my parents would think if they knew about this??? I know I'm starting too many threads about different topics, but this goes along with my worrying about wanting to be part of the BDSM scene someday and I worry I'm a pervert or a freak or something. Is this even close to normal?

Personally, I wouldn't have a problem if I had a partner who just said the same thing to me. Admittedly I don't know a lot about the BDSM scene but plenty of people have 'weird' fetishes and it doesn't mean you're a freak. I think a lot more people have fetishes like this than there are willing to own up to it, because of social taboos etc. If you want to explore that kind of thing, there is absolutely nothing wrong with that. Don't let anyone get Freudian on you.

Its not weird if it was then so are many others ...

As long as you are hurting no one I do not see the problem .

Hi Indie - I wanted you to know this is a recognized fetish, so you're not the only one who has this desire(even though it's not a full blown fetish). There was even a thread posted in this section, that has some links I posted. You're not weird, but some people do have a hard time finding acceptance from potential partners. It only becomes a problem if the desire becomes a 'true fetish' where it interferes with the person having a healthy relationship, which is separate from the diaper idea.

I know you're young and inexperienced(I think) so I hope you don't mind me giving you some motherly advice. I'm not a prude when it comes to porn as long as it's in moderation. Where I think it can be a problem is with young people, who haven't had sex yet. Think of this comparison - sex for someone who's inexperienced is like an onion - a slow discovery between 2 young people - everything is new and fresh. Porn ruins what would otherwise be a beautiful natural discovery

If an experienced young person views websites depicting sex...this is like opening all your Xmas gifts before Xmas morning. In other words seeing sex before you have sex, spoils the beauty of natural discovery. It can also make us impressionable to areas we might not otherwise delve into. This is why some people start out soft core, then end up looking at the more unusual, possibly sinister websites.

All I'm saying is, please be careful what you look at on the internet. Instead wait for the moment when the time is right and discover sex the old fashioned way. In conclusion you're not weird - just don't let it become a prominent focus like in the thread below. I hope you don't mind me giving you motherly advice.

http://forums.psychcentral.com/showt...s+wear+diapers

Thank you everyone, and thank you Lynn for your advice...appreciated greatly as always I like that you give motherly advice - it shows you care. I don't think I have a true "fetish" because I don't feel I need to have the object to become sexually aroused. It's probably very common to be curious about this sort of thing at my age - most teens just don't let on about it! Thanks as well for the link x

I think you're right ((Indie)) - that's what so great about being able to talk about subjects like this here at PC. I think what makes an object become a fetish is the 'shame or forbidden' factor. Well, if you talk about it openly, there's no need for shame and secrecy, hence it probably will never become problematic. I think it's great you can feel open and honest about your feelings. Good for you.

OH wow.

Hi there, Indie and especially Lynn.P who helped me a ton in my thread a while ago.
Long time no see!! I just came to see what was new and came across this thread.

I have the full blown AB/DL fetish Indie and I embrace all aspects of it. I'm not gay or anything, totally manly, but I know what you mean about the diapers, it is a great feeling and nothing to be ashamed of...ever.

I wear the outfits, powder up and all that jazz and you know what?..I wouldn't trade it for the world. I went through a period of denial and obsession with my fetish that I did receive help with. I keep it discrete, fun and under control now.
I have been into this for as long as I can remember which was like 6 years old when I would steal(and wear) my cousins diapers when they came over.

I'm glad you are here and I can answer anything about this that you would like answered. The main thing is that ..you're not strange....your best friend may as well be a Diaper lover or even stranger...you never know and there are A LOT of us out there.

Take care and hope to talk to you soon.

Talking about it on forums like this and any place really helps people understand these things better. I was a diaper fetishist WAY before the internet and I thought I WAS the only one in the world that liked to wear diapers... I went through some tough times as a teen, because of this and feeling like a freak.

Kids today have it nice because they can Google this thing and find out tons of people from everywhere are into diapers and such. I remember going on the internet for the first time in my life(25 years old) and I Googled "People that like diapers" The initial moment and discovery and all the websites about the subject totally made me lose a lot of emotions and self hatred in a matter of seconds.

The feeling was surreal after I had discovered that I AM normal..nothing is wrong with me and it is just a harmless fetish. After 25 years of thinking I was a weirdo....I no longer felt weird in the diapers... What a great feeling, because fo rthe first time in my life... I could finally come out of the closet

I'm really happy to see someone else admit this fetish.... You're not alone.

Thank you for sharing your story ((Unconstruct)). I'm very happy you're not troubled by your fetish like before. I remember in your other thread, you weren't happy with the way the fetish was controlling you and now you choose when the right time is. I'm glad you were courageous enough to share this with main stream society and we could make you feel comfortable. Great to know you're in a happier frame of mind now.

Like lynn said, it is actually fairly common of a fetish to have. Everyone is different and enjoys different things. If YOU feel it's a problem then maybe you should look into potentially how this fetish came on. If you don't have a problem with it, then it's not a problem. And whether a partner chose to participate or not, sharing something like this can really show you how a person feels about you. It's no different than having to admit any other baggage or issues anyone else has. I'm sure some people would say some of the stuff I enjoy is weird (for instance there are over 20 boxes of bugs in my office lol) but who cares? I'm a weirdo and proud of it!

LOL, that's good that you're proud! We all should be proud of our weirdness - I can be, and at other times not so much. I had the weirdest dream last night and I thought I could attain greater insight into it if I posted here. Thank goodness for anonymity

...it went like this. I dreamt that I had to go to the bathroom (don't say you weren't warned of the strangeness of this dream!), and I'd heard something about some people feeling pleasure about not only wearing diapers or absorbent pads but actually using them. So, in the dream, I did this. And somehow my mom found out and I overheard her saying to someone "she's been doing this since she was little - what is wrong with her?!". I felt deeply ashamed and guilty and so I came to PC to talk about it. I posted what I'd done and within minutes people were replying, saying how nasty I was and how I needed to stop doing this.

Strange dream, huh?

Unconstruct...thank you for your message - it's great to have support from someone who knows more about this than I do. I'm glad you aren't uncomfortable about your fetish like you were previously...support does a world of good doesn't it?

If you need any help on other sites or products that deal with this fetish, let me know. The internet is full of stuff and nice people that "get you"
Also I can show you where to get free samples of really awesome adult diapers....not the hospital type junk either, but really soft, absorbent and cute ones

I'm receiving a new type of diaper in the mail this week that had awesome praise among the AB community as being very babyish, soft and thick... They have the velcro tabs on them too that are suppose to actually work!...very rare for an adult size diapers.

Ha-Ha..too funny talking about diapers on here with people that are looking saying to themselves "What the???"

At least you came to talk about it! Now that I know I'm epileptic, I'm not embarrassed but several years ago I had woken up in the middle of the night to see I had urinated in my bed!!!! I was thinking "I'm 19......what the...." and never said a word about it to anyone. Shows how much I know! Maybe if I would have been more open, I would have gotten answers sooner instead of waiting 7 years for a dx! Because of course my neurologist specifically asked me if I had ever had problems with incontinence and I thought "holy crap...so I'm NOT weird?! That was normal?!"

Bottom line....best to talk about things because if you don't they can drive you CRAZY! And in my case that's a very short trip!

Now to really freak people out lmao!...

This is the ABU Cushie, the first adult diaper produced by a diaper company that saw a market in the AB world. It is suppose to be ab exact copy of a Pampers Cruiser only in adult size. In other words, this is the DL/AB dream diaper and it shows just how popular and common infantalism really is.

Check it out.......

Yepp, because since I have discussed this openly I enjoy it a lot more knowing others do it and they are actually normal people not perverts. A before I was very ashamed every time my parents would leave the house and I would put on diapers I had hidden in my ceiling in my bedroom.

It's good to talk about this stuff.

Thank you both unconstruct and salukigirl... I agree with that saluki...I have to talk about things because they do bother me when not discussed...though I have to admit I haven't brought this up in therapy (yet?) It's one of those things that has always lurked on the periphery of my mind yet it's never really posed a problem.

LOL about the pics. I don't think you could have found a bigger picture. I log on for a few minutes while my pizza cooking, and my 8 year old is peeking over my shoulder and here's this huge diaper lol. She says "what's that mom, how come they have that picture there"?

HAHAHAHAHA Lynn Most pictures don't show up on my computer (piece of crap!) so I have to click on the box with the red X that shows up. Good thing my parents aren't down in the basement with me!

Oh sorry, Lynn...

So Lynn, when ya goin to get some of those?.... I know you wanna lmao.

Another thing to keep in check is that a fetish can become obsessive and it is NOT your entire life. So keep it under control and live life to the fullest. At the end of the day, chill out in a diaper(or whatever floats your boat) while reading a book then fall asleep.

It's a wonderful thing to have if you use it like that.

Lynn, how's the pizza?....

I'm going to little Ceasers....seeya lol.

First off...I wish there was a little Caesars in the vacinity.

Second....my mom actually had to hide my pacifiers from me because I would find them and use them....and I'm talking about age 8 or 9 I still did this. I probably still would if I had any lol

I'm seriously really hungry now after reading that last post lol

Ugh...what have I gotten myself into? I'm reminded of the little girl who would "play in the bathroom"...if you catch my drift. I feel like such a freak. I'm not going to go into details, I'm just worried I smell like pee. I know I shouldn't feel like a freak but I do. Ever since I was little and would do this I've felt ashamed.

Well you have to shower and keep clean.

Don't feel like a freak, many people are into many things but it's not like they will tell everyone. Heck did you ever see that fetish where people like to pop balloons with their butt cheeks?... no joke. Many are into wearing latex as well and watersports. I draw the line at scat...

Do you play sports at school or keep active in something that you like to do(other than sexual exploration)? It's important to not let a fetish or sexual thing become obsessive. You need to live life and achieve your dreams....the fetish is there at the end of the day to help you relax and have fun nothing more.

So go easy on yourself, play sports, go out with friends and DO GOOD IN SCHOOL!! Just at the end of the day..slap on a diaper or whatever you want and laugh at yourself.

Take care.

Thanks for asking...pizza was delicious. Ever since the bad economy - I can't afford to buy pizza. I don't like the cheap ones like Little Ceasars and a large from a nice place is about $25 easy. There's this pizza place at the end of my street and he doesn't mind selling me the dough and it tastes better too.

LOL about me and diapers -TBO this doesn't 'float my boat'. I haven't heard the float my boat saying since my mom used to use this lol. My mom was disabled from a stroke for 8 yrs and she had to wear adult diapers and I had to change them sometimes. Since the experience with my mother, I never want to end up disabled and wearing diapers. After having 2 kids I would be happy never seeing another diaper again LOL.

I've been wondering if you could answer this question? If a person likes this fetish and wants to explore this with a partner - does the person look for a partner who also likes to wear diapers too or would they look for a partner who could play the 'nuturer/caretaker' role. For example would a person who enjoys this fetish look for another person who enjoys wearing them or a person to be the 'adult caregiver role'??