Bisexual anyone?

I'm really turned on by girl's I am so frustrated want to do things with a female so bad right now

I am still trying to figure this out myself. When I am in a relationship my homoerotic fantasy deminishes, when I am single it spikes to the point of obsession. I have recently reconnected to my former female paramour and love her with all my heart but that same fantasy has not dissipated this time around. I am concerned what this means while we were separated I really thought I was closet bisexual, I am confused and frustrated but I would never cheat on her and I never cheated on any of my former girlfriends when I was fortunate enough to have one.

I have periods where I find myself strongly attracted to women to the point where I'm distressed about it. I've been with my bf for four and a half years.

I find it hard for me to be in relationships being bisexual because when I'm with a girl I want a guy and vice versa. Maybe I just haven't found the right person yet because I never feel satisfied. I've ended every relationship I've been in because I have no idea what I want or what's actually going to make me happy. 34 and I am still not technically out yet because I don't know where my head is at still. Male female transgender its all the same for me which I guess gives me more options but I am still struggling and not happy

I had no idea they called in pansexual.

But I guess I'd be it, since I been lusting about Dana International since I first seen her performance of Diva in that weird bird dress on Eurovision.

I've never been in a relationship myself, but it''s a lot easier for me to deal with it since I'm generally more attracted to women than men.

MORDECAII----

It can be difficult and trust me I know because I've been on a little bit of both sides before. I was in a 'relationship' where the best name for me would be the 3rd wheel. It was okay in the beginning and eventually trust issues took over the entire situation. On my part a little, mainly her part and her boyfriend just was unsure if that situation was really one I wanted to be in.

Now for me being a bisexual female in my own committed relationship, I've talked to him about it and he knows I'm attracted to women...sometimes encourages me to find someone. From time to time I have urges and I mean STRONG urges but I refuse to give in and find the real thing. Porn is just fine. Simply because I don't want to tarnish or complicate our relationship and bring in someone who may develop serious feelings towards me or even both of us...because I've been there before.

It is VERY tricky but as long as you have an understanding and the freedom to express yourself whether it's going to the strip club together from time to time, setting up a one night stand (obviously whatever is agreeable with your own comfort level) that understanding between you and your current partner is essential.