took it too far.

I wrote a couple of paragraph but deleted them. Basically it's ended badly. My Master didn't accept my limits, he has definitely done what will affect me for a while.

didn't want to bore you with the details, I just worry what things will be like in the future and how can I trust again? It takes so much trust to give up all control and vision which for my lifestyle is necessary. Will this go away or will I be too anxious to trust in future??

I'm shocked and miserable and so much else all at once. I'm lost.

A Master should never push a sub's limits, and vice versa. You shouldn't feel threatened by him or do anything you don't want to do.

I don't know the details of your relationship, but it will take time to heal.

Have you heard of fetlife? It is a social-networking/forum for those who participate in the BDSM lifestyle and it's helped me with my questions.

Thanks sweetie. I think he is going through a rough spot with work, he'd gone out and had too much to drink. It was all so messed up.
I know he should never harm me, or make me feel unsafe. So I left, my collar thrown on the bed for him to see and realise what he's done. I know I shouldn't but I want to go back and beg for forgiveness for leaving.

I feel like I can't trust any guy or dom again.

And Yes I am on fetlife, not a very active member latrly though!

Well, while I confess I am not the most knowledgeable person to ask about BDSM, if there are limits of ANY type in ANY sort of relationship, they should be strictly observed. Him going beyond those boundaries isn't, in my opinion, so much a master/sub issue as it is a plain relationship issue.

I'd tell you that if he cannot respect your "no," specifically in a matter such as this, that might be a sign that you need to reevaluate your standing with him. "No" should be an instantly respected thing within the bedroom. To violate that is a major red flag to me.

I am sorry this happened to you. If I can be of any help or if you want to talk about it if it would help, don't hesitate for a second to PM me. I'm an open ear.

My best and hugs,
Harley

I don't think it's a good idea to do BDSM style sex when someone's under the influence of alcohol.