Not now!... I'll be disowned :(

I have a problem... I'm in love with my best friend. And it's a girl. I've told her before that I love her and she said she loved me too. We both said that if we were gay that we would date each other... But we were kinda teasing them... But I'm serious now.

Today was her birthday and I went out to dinner with her and her family. And I couldn't stop watch ing her laugh and smile.and then on the drive back she started to fall asleep on my shoulder. I had this VERY STRONG URGE to kiss her. but I didn't of course...

I use to go to the same school as her. And we would see each other every hour of every day. And we held hands through the halls (because we are best friends) and she is always there for me and she is beautiful and sweet and funny and I LOVE HER!!!!

But this is against my religious. It says in the Bible that a man is made for a woman, not a woman and a woman... I would be shunned.

I don't know what to do... I don't see her very often anymore but I love her soooooo much. And i just start bawling when someone mentions her name. Tears of joy, because she is such an amazingly perfect person. Ad tears of pain, because I never get to see her....

WHAT CAN I DO?!?!???? My heart is breaking into a billion pieces....