Zoophilla question and help?

Hi, my names is uneccary for this as it may compromise me, but they reason why I am posting here because I have a serious issue that I need to get opinion and answers on. My serious issue is that I am a zoophile well or I would be called one. From the start of my life I had loved animals to the point where I wouldn't kill a bug, well you see that would be normal for any child but my fascination with animals of all kinds grew deeper as I got older. First when I was 9 my favorite movie was lion king 2, the one with kovu and kiara, well so I love it and before I would goto bed I would imagine me as kovu and raising a family of cubs with kiara despite them being lion, but at this time had no ideal what sex was so I wasn't to concerned by the ideal. To shorten this I will say I had small urges and feelings to animals though my stuff that can be considered curiosity, but then 2 years ago I discovered beastiality and at first I was weirded out by the act and then turned on by it, but to behonest the only reason searched animal sex was because I already starting to fantasize about animals in a sexaul way. Well anyways I kept looking at the porn and eventually masturbaiting to it. I felt wrong, dirty and most of all confused as to why I did so I went to my friends and asked them was it normal and obviously they made fun of me and it hurt so I tried hiding it and constantly fighting it, but at first it was easy and then it got harder when I started hanging around my families dogs, I would have a hard time while petting them to not 'accidentally' touch them in the genitals. I spent a good year and a half fighting it but I thought I had completely forgot when I decided to relax and have some personal time not knowing I didn't close the door all the way and boom came in my brothers dog all up in my junk licking away I tried to stop him but he pushed back against my effort and let me tell you I aint strong in anyways so trying to push him was the most difficult thing and eventually I gave in and let him do what she wanted not wanting to piss him off. After the event I became extremely confused and distraught because I had to admit I enjoyed it he got me all exaughted (BTW I am a guy if I didn't mention) and that was the first actually expirence with a dog, I like to called a happy molestation. I am making this sound good well I personally at this point believe that zoophilla is okay but I could bemwrong, but what I havnt said is that I tried to change and when I did it left some pretty nasty mental scars, I gave myself depression thinking no one would like me, I became distant from my family, I attempted suicide but could not go though with it because I had friends who cared for me, I cut and all of this was because I forced myself thinking it was wrong but should I try again because I ain't normal or should I be content with what I am and live with it what's your thought on this.

Hello Cosmicsight: I see this is your first post... so... welcome to PsychCentral... from the Skeezyks!

You know... there are all sorts of sexuality, as well as gender-identity, related issues that people struggle with. And, from my perspective, it's important to try not to look at them from the perspective of them being "wrong". All this accomplishes is to cause the person who has one to feel shame & embarrassment.

I'm an older person now; & I'm biologically male. But all of my life I carried a compulsion toward wanting to have been female. Nowadays it's referred to as being transgender. But, when I was young, the term hadn't even been invented yet. And neither sex nor gender were considered to be appropriate topics for discussion. Somehow, I don't know how, I learned at very early age that this was something I must never talk about. So I grew up keeping it a closely guarded secret, feeling weird & somehow slightly dirty. But, in secret, I found all sorts of strange ways to act out & satisfy my compulsion. (And, by-the-way, I've made two serious suicide attempts of my own.) I also grew up to become a very private, secretive sort of person. Nowadays I pretty-much just keep to myself. In fact, I carried around so many secrets, for so many years, that it's become almost a compulsion of its own. If I don't have a few secrets tucked in my hip pocket, so to speak, I feel like I'm just not complete.

Now, having written all of that, I will say that having compulsions, or a fetishes, can present a real problem. Society in general does not tolerate them well. Some can even be illegal. And under any circumstances the guilt, shame, & fear of exposure that a person can carry around can be corrosive... leading to such mental health problems as major depression, anxiety, & suicidality. From what you wrote, it sounds like you're already experiencing some of this.

From what I've read, it can be pretty close to impossible to "cure" a person of a fetish. The best that can be hoped for is that the person can learn to manage it in such a way that it does not open them up to public ridicule & legal trouble. If possible, it may be of value for you to get some individual therapy with a therapist who has experience working with individuals who have sexuality-related compulsions or fetishes. (I would be cautious about seeing just any therapist.) A therapist may not be able to "cure" you of your zoophilla. But s/he may be able to help you with the depression, anxiety & fear that go along with having such a compulsion. I wish you well...

Thank you this really helped, at first I was afraid to post it because I had been to other sites and got a really negative response, but yours is The most eye opening responses ever I am gonna see a therapist now to help. Thank you so much :-)

One thing I've noticed is that it's peoples' reaction to things that matters far more than the thing itself. I remember when I was in gay therapy when I was younger.

Hi Cosmicsight,

It was very brave of you to open up about your needs and desires. Firstly I want to say that you are far from alone and please do not punish yourself about this any more. I am a trained Psychotherapist but am now retired. During my time working with sexual issues of clients I found some of them had the same feelings that you have. Some had acted on it, while others only dreamed.

A few bits of information for you.

Z (Zoophelia) is legal in Brazil, Cambodia, Finland, Germany, Mexico, Romania, Russia & Thailand.

It has been exempt from prosecution in 80% of European countries since 2011. Yet in the US it is only legal in 13 states.

In Russia they have 2 training centres for dogs to be trained to have sex with humans. They have found that the when they have the choice the male dogs prefer the humans to other dogs.

There is an organisation in Germany names ZETA ZETA | Zoophiles Engagement für Toleranz und Aufklärung where you can find more information on the subject of 'Z' and they also explain the important difference between 'Z' and Bestiality.

I just want you to know you are not alone and do not need to feel so bad about your personal sexual needs.

x

your not alone cosmic, many others feel like that too, and they are afraid to be honest and open, and you were strong to come and be honest with your thoughts and feelings, i know its hard and confusing when you go against the social norm, but i hope you embrace yourself as an individual and allow yourself to be free from self hate. and skeezyks, rubyx, kipper-bang. your responses were great, its great knowing there are people who dont judge not matter what their own views are.