TW: Gender confusion

Sometimes I feel really feminine, I want to wear dresses and put lipstick. But the thought of being called my birth name causes me to cringe. Same with being called she. This causes me great discomfort, as I am transgender. But sometimes I wish I could just go out and try it. But I already came out as transgender to my family and school. I feel like a indecisive fake. I'm starting to be confused on my gender identity again. Help? I am really starting to feel suicidal from this.

Hello Caelix3 I think you might get more response to this post if you were to re-post it in the Transgender forum. It's unfortunately not a very active forum right now. However, there are members there who will know exactly what you're talking about.

Being transgender is something I have struggled with, to varying degrees, my entire life. I still don't understand what it was all about. I really think that in order to have any hope of figuring it all out, a person needs the services of a qualified & experienced gender identity therapist... (not just an "I treat everybody" type of therapist. They can do more harm than good.) I wish you the very best with your struggle. I know what it's like...

You are not an indecisive fake. You are the only one who knows who you truly are. I told my parents that I was an atheist and it required all of my strength to do that in a Christian household. I cannot imagine how much courage it took to tell your entire community that you are transgender. Just follow what you love and do not be afraid to stand out from the crowd. Why do people act like what you are doing is wrong just because few others are doing it? Besides, how were you supposed to decide your original gender in the first place? "I'd like a cup of androgen with two shots of estrogen to go in an umbillical cord, please"?

Anyways, just remember that people like us are here to support you, even if we do not openly say it. Cake for you! (:V