[PurpleFlyingMonkeys]

I've been a cigarette smoker over half my life now. I'm 27 and started when I was 13. Every.single.person in my family are addicts. I allowed myseld to become addicted to cigarettes but that's it.
Now I'm trying to quit. 2.5 weeks ago my husband and I switched to electronic cigarettes. I had my anger but not too bad. Two days ago we quit the electronic cigarettes and my husband is doing fine. Not me.
I've been getting worse. I feel so much rage building up all the time but I can't pin point the souece. I just feel this overwhelming rage. Its gotten so bad in the last two weeks that twice I have considered leaving my husband and two girls. Not because I'm angry with them byt because they deserve so much better than this. If I don't change quickly they will be better off without me.
I come home and the baby is crying, the dog we are dog sitting has chewed into a can of formula and I have a melt down. I'm ashamed to say I nearly yelled at my baby saying "nothing is wrong with you!" I know I'm not a physical threat to anyone but our walls and belongings but still. I was so upset with myself that I slapped myself very hard in the face. The first time I have ever done this and I haven't done harm to myself at all in 13 years! It wasn't out of planning but impulse. I was so angry with myself for talking to my baby that way that I slapped myself without thinking.
My baby is only three months so I know to walk away if I get too worked up, I was only overly worked up eith myself and did walk away after that and cried my eyes out.
Part of me thinks it would just be best to buy a pack of cigarettes but this is the longest I've gone without a cigarette in 10 years. I have to quit but at what expense?
How can I get control over this anger? I've already had two rage episodes and three cry my eyes out episodes and it's not even noon yet. Please help by offering advice or tips on how to control this. Here come the water works again. And the anger. My husband called and I guess I didn't hide my anger well. Enough because now he's angry from hearing my anger and even though the baby is fed and changed and always a good baby she chose today to want to scream and yell all day

I don't know what to do. Help please?!

[PurpleFlyingMonkeys]

I didn't know there was a smoking cessation so if a mod could move this I wiuld love that. Its been a while since I have used pc

[SnakeCharmer]

My goddaughter is going through the same thing. When she switched from nicotine to non-nicotine in the e-cig, she sort of went over the edge. E-cigs aren't the most healthy thing either, but she is powerfully addicted and needs some extra help to quit. She didn't taper off. She's starting over again and this time she'll taper off slowly so her body doesn't have to go cold turkey.

I've seen people who are super-addicted have great success with nicotine patches and gum. With the patches, it worked best if they started with the strongest, stayed on it for a month, then went to the second strongest. I think they come in three strengths. While they're going through the process of reducing the dose of nicotine, it also helps to work on the social cues and attitudes that cause relapse. It's not easy, but it's worth it.

If your doc says it's okay, the patches and/or gum might work for you. You can get some advice on the best way to do it from the cancer society.

Guide to Quitting Smoking

I quit smoking 12 times and failed. On the 13th try, I never looked back. I learned how to avoid the pitfalls that always got me started again.

Nicotine is probably the most addictive substance in the world. Some people respond greatly to it and quitting is harder for them. Please don't be down on yourself for having a hard time. Your particular biochemisty is probably making it extra difficult. It's physical. It's not character or strength or weakness. Your body chemistry just happens to respond extra powerfully to the effects of nicotine. The important thing is you're trying. It's very hard and it's worthy, not only for yourself, but for the sake of the baby.

I wish you the best of luck with this and hope that even if you stumble and fall a few times that you'll pick yourself back up again and keep up the good effort.

[Hellion]

Well maybe going back to the electronic for a while wouldn't be a terrible idea...or if you are trying to get out of the habit of puffing on something, there are things like nicotine patches and nicotine gum and some medications that are supposed to get rid of nicotine cravings. Seems like you're having some withdrawl from going without the nicotine...so you might need to taper slower than your husband did.

I mean i think sometimes its good for people to try to quit together, but everyone is different and might not be able to do it at the same pace...seems like that could be part of your issue. But that is why it is considered an addiction if you could just easily up and quit there would be no problem the issue is wanting to quit but can't or getting irritable and what not when you try...some people need outside help, some people just quit cold turkey on their own and some people have to gradually cut down and quit.

[waiting4]

I quit smoking 3 years ago...cold turkey as the patches didn't do it for me, but as was stated, everyone is different. There are medications to help take the edge offso a visit to your doc may be the best thing until u feel more yourself. Good luck and I'm sending empowerment thoughts to you *hugs*

[dvious00]

I can understand where you are coming from with the anger thing. When I tried to quit in the past I had some bouts of anger when things would become too overwhelming for me. I think you might wanna look into patches as well like the others said. In the past I have used them and they definatly help with the withdrawls we get from the nicotine. I am using the patches again(been like almost seven weeks) and from past experiences I know I would be a wreck without them considering all the stress and aggravation I have been dealing with in these past weeks. I hope the best for ya. But definatly think about patches.... I used to smoke a pack a day.... 38 now and started at 15 ...stay strong...

[hannabee]

Try reading Alan Carr's the easy way to quit smoking. It really helped me. It talks about the fact that we smokers have totally been duped into thinking we have to have nicotine. It is actually out of your system in a couple of hours, not days weeks, etc. Of course, the triggers to smoke are always around and if you can learn to notice those, you can get a grip and talk yourself out of it.
You are only angry because when you think of smoking you are that TEENAGER that wants to rebel and smoke, rather still stuck at an arrested form of development. You are NOT that dumb teenager any longer, you are a responsible adult who should do what is best for herself and her family. Right? You can do this. PM me anytime you want a cig and I bet I can talk you out of it. Problem is the cravings don't really last that long..so REALIZE that!!! Try quitnet.com tons of support there too! Won't say good luck as there is no luck involved.

[raestan92]

I just wanted to say don't be so hard on yourself about the incident with your little one when you weren't your "sweetest". My little one is seven months and sometimes just hearing the cry alone is enough to raise a persons anxiety when that's something they deal with. You said that you even automatically " punished" yourself by slapping yourself in the face and then you cried.....you should remorse and felt guilt and pain for what you did....if you were just a bad parent you would have screamed at your kid at the top of your lungs and not cared. So you did the right thing...you started to losing your patience, realized it, and walked away...good job mama! I've been a cigarette smoker for 5 years now and I know I need to quit as well. I don't recommend Chantix (medication prescribed to people to quit smoking).... I know people who have taken it...one of the being my mom. She had the worst and most vivid nightmares she had ever had. Another friend of mind became suicidal. Just remember to take that deep breath and don't let your thoughts overwhelm you (I have that issue). Keep your chin up! :-)