Recovery does happen!!

My name is wing and I am new to a forum not sure quite how this works for this is my first time.

I know what its like to feel lost inside your own thoughts. I know what it is like not knowing how to make a decision. I know what it feels like not being able to move outside my front door sometimes not even being able to move from the bed to the shower.

Through my recovery and believe me its been hell to say the least.\I had to danced with the devil many times, but i still lead this dance no matter how many times he tries to take me down. I found through my travels that makiing connections with people is the key.

Years ago i spent days nights weeks years, online in chatrooms talking endlessly looking for a connection to make me whole again. I made many internet friends but lost connection with my own family in the process. It took my uncle to take me out one day when i was going through a divorce he said you can't allow depression to get the best of you, so he brought me to a singles dance. Music was my savior. I hit the dance floor like a skater for i was a former freeystyle skater I just danced my own way didn't connect with anyone just did my own thing it was a high. A natarul high but when i stopped dancing i was faced with a room full of strangers, everytime asking me questions where do i work what do i do, wanna hook up I couldn't take it.

So i went back on the dance floor. I would dance the night away just to avoid people. I was good at that for i was use to being on stage as a kid. I put on quite a show too. I did have one friend that would come with me she did the same thing.

Until one day a man came to me on the dance floor and said can i have this dance well i said if you can keep up you can, and I floated off to the other side. Well Brian stayed with me no matter where i was in the room he stuck with it. We danced the night away, but when we got outside to talk i crumbled. I was so messed up I couldn't make a sentence straight. But he took me home that night and held me close and told me we would be just cuddle buddies. Finally somebody held me just a solid hold thru the night

Today Brian is now Sara a long funny funny story i am looking forward to sharing with you all.

The point of the story is we are human and we are not suppose to be alone but sara taught me in order to have a friend you have to be a friend. So after 8 years sara has been a friend and now I have made connections in the real world to the point i am speaking on behalf of mental illness at the state house, to holding down a job and finally after being lonely my entire life i am whole again. So I know telling everyone that it does get better knowing that nobody would believe it or feel like it i not going to say that. What I am going to say is that you have the power in your own thoughts to change its up to you, but its the art of friendship and FAITH that keep the human race going

So again Hello to all my new friends and even though its hard keep smiling eventually you will start to feel that smile inside your heart. Now will someone show me how to work this forum i am really lost LOL

Keep Smiling
Wingdreamer

Thank you, Wing. Good for you!

What a refreshing and insightful introduction to yourself and one that will give hope to many people here, welcome to PC. It is indeed a very simple user friendly site to use. It was founded by Doc John in the early 00's and he holds Q&A sessions weekly that are well attended in the chatrooms, there are many other more specific chats weekly dealing with issues like bipolar and depression, DBT therapy, Borderline personality disorder, parenting and so many others you wiil find the full list under calendaron the blue bar at the top of the page. The site is overseen by a very kind and caring team of administrators and moderators. Respect for each is key here and whether you are here to support or in need of support you will always find a lsitening ear, it may take sometime to get an answer to your post as this is a gloal site and you are dealing with lots of time zones, but you get to meet wonderful people from all over the globe and it is fascinating to learn of different cultures and ways of life. There are community guidelines I would urge you to read at first so that it is clear to you how the site operates. We are a secular group of people and generally talk of a religious nature is not encouraged as we have so many people from different backgrounds but if you wish to add a spiritual edge to your post got to the spiritual forum where you are able to add a more spiritual dimension to it. The forums are divided into specific issues like Bi Polar. Eating disorders, Dissosicative disorders, personality disorders and then there are the non speciofic forums like general social chat, other mental health issues, creative corner and many many more. You may find from time to time you are in need of support then you should post your issue and how it is affecting you, then wait a while as it is a global site and you are dealing with different timezones so youmay not get an answer immediately, but you will in time get feedback alternatively you may be a supportive type person then you jsut respond to the person who maybe in distress with a supportive response. Most of all you make great friends here and remember above all to respect the members of the community. It is important to bare in mind that this is a mental health site so you will come across people in varying degrees of wellness and they need to be treated accordingly. start with this link

http://forums.psychcentral.com/forumdisplay.php?f=49

its about community guidelines

Good luck and look forward to getting to know you better

Paddy