im so ugly

so i hate my looks i dont like going out because of it i hate shopping because im fat and big. Ive had problems with my weight and looks because the first time someone called me fat was my DAD he called me fat when i was 5 and said ill always be fat and never lose weight! i always think about that time and when i eat and shop and go outside with out a sweat shirt i think of that and what people think of me!! i hide behind my sweatshirts so no one will judge me but through out my life ive always been judge because ive been fat! and it sucks cause im stuck in this set of mind where becuase of my weight and looks i dont get to do this i would love to do like go swimming, take my shirt off, show my bf me , go to the beach, go to the mall, even go to the gym! As well me being so fat and big it also made me not get a gf so i tired asking guys and alot of them again like the girls turned me down beacause i was fat all they liked was my personalitly but couldnt be seem with a fat boy! now im in a wonderful realtionship with a guy i love so much( long distance realttionship, i live in California while he lives in Arkansas) i would do anything for him and he loves be for my looks now but i keep thinking why?? im so fat, big, and ugly why does he still want to be with me why does he want to have sex with me? i just dont want to be hurt like before!

any feedback would be so nice and thanks for taking time to read this you probably think i need attention but i dont i hate getting attention! but comments would be lovely!

Johnny 5, I would say ignore your dad, ignore if anyone calls you fat because people who do that and critique other's looks are obviously insecure about themselves so when they make fun of someone else, it somehow makes them feel better about themselves. Someday all of the insecure people who do act out in this manner will realize that they aren't any better than the lowest of the low on this planet, and that critisizing other's looks doesn't make them better than anyone else. You are one of my very good friends and I love you no matter what. I'd say go out and do the things you enjoy doing and ignore everyone else, because girlll to me you're beautiful on the inside out =]

-madison

I know how you feel about the weight thing.. i too have been big since i was little. I was constantly teased and developed a really low self esteem....i would say ditto to delicious...do want you want to do and forget about everyone else..i have missed out in alot, because i have always been afraid of how people will judge me...you shouldnt have to go thru the same...you have the rest of your life ahead of you make the most of it....if someone really loves you they wont see any thing but your personality and charm...do not give up..thats the main thing..

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Noone can define ugly or beautiful because we are all different, see people differently and we all see different things in different people. Beauty comes from the inside. I wish more people would think like this instead of the shallow ones judging by 'magazine' pictures etc. confidence, kindness, compassion, care for others is more important than looks imho. Please don't give yourself such a hard time, if people judge you by weight that is their problem not yours. i am a largish person who has been slim in the past and i'm short too, people are so shallow sometimes. Don't you worry about what others think. Be you and be proud. Truth be known not many people are size 0 anyhow ..... i'm not being nasty to naturally thin people by the way .... or people with eating disorders, please don't think that.

My mother used to call me fat all the time and i wasn't. When i put weight on after my children she stopped introducing me to friends etc and even called me fat in front of other people .... i just pity her now .... so shallow.

hugs and care to you my friend, Jinnyann xoxoxoxoxo

People don't understand what they're doing when they such things to a child! You retain those words and they haunt you! Its tough getting past issues that originate from childhood but it can be done

Don't think of yourself as ugly or fat! Think of the positive things about yourself! You are what you make of yourself. Not what others think; they have no idea who you are!

Be yourself not what others think you should be!

The outer part of us is not who we are! Hollywood and TV has put this image of what a woman should be and these women are not the average woman! They starve themselves, have plastic surgery numerous times and cellulite is painted over in the magazines! This image is not real yet every woman tries to be it!

I hope you can learn to forget what others think and love yourself for who you are!

Hugs

not tryin to be rude or not sound understanding but i do get what you mean about the weight issue but that's a FIXABLE issue. i mean people have so many other problems, like deformities & such that arent. they are born with it & it sometimes takes major reconstructive surgery to fix it & guess what if you're poor; then you're pretty much ****ed. but if you're overweight, i mean seriously work-out or try to loose the weight instead of complaining. im sorry im just in total ***** mode right now, i guess what im trying to say is dont get mad over fixable issues; fix them. i know it's hard to lose weight; i've done everything possible to do so but i found that my weight is a non-issue because i have un-fixable problems that are killing me! that's all; im sorry if i offended you. i just wanted to give you a little bit of reality. i've seen too many people suffer with un-fixable tragedies to come across this.

I'm so sorry you've been hurt like that. You have a boyfriend now who loves you for you and that is great. If you were to ask him why your weight doesn't bother him, I bet his answer would be because he loves you. Sometimes you just can't put a finger on the why of love. Don't waste time wondering why--spend that time enjoying your life and your boyfriend, your self-esteem will build with that enjoyment.